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Thoughts and feelings of the moment or revelations I have had and want to share with others that I hope may be useful to perhaps maybe at least one other person in making their day, or at least making them smile or connect a missing dot somewhere
6 years ago. December 18, 2017 at 5:02 AM

This is a story about a boy named Johnny who found a place he thought he could call his own, a playground of people like him that liked what he did. He thought he could make friends there and was friendly and fun loving with lots of people there of which many seemed to enjoy him a great deal at first.

Sometimes meeting people you make such good great friends with them that all seems perfectly well and fantastic that you are happy and full of happiness and smiles inside, so greatful that you happened to have met such an incredible person in your life and connected with them so easily. They know so much more about so many things you happen to like and would like to know more about.

So then why is it that others seem to want to run this person off, chase them away and be mean to them? Why do they suddenly not like them when all they have ever been is nice to everyone you have ever seen? You start to wonder and you talk to people but no one can really tell you specific reasons for why they do not like this particular person. You search hard, you look into everything you can, you talk to everyone, serching, looking and investigating but nothing comes up. You cannot understand why others may not like Johnny, why they are being mean to him and trying to run him off or scare him away. He seems okay to you, and no one says anything bad about him other than the fact he is new, so is being new a reason for them to chase Johnny off the playground?

You nurture and help him because afterall we are a community, a family and we are here to help each other out and support each other in bad times when we need it most. So why is it that people are so trained on pushing away those who they think are not "perfect in their eyes" as I put it? If we do not fit into a perfect puzzle then we are cast aside and labeled odd ducks out. Wasn't that why we created a community to begin with? We need to show love and support not cast away those who need us the most because you never know what someone is going through in their own real life, what they have to deal with or how they are feeling. Johnny only came to the playground looking for community and friends like him, and yet because he was new, because he was not the same as everyone else he was cast out and pushed aside like yesterday's newspaper.

It takes only a moment to forgive someone and say hello and be nice. To swallow your pride and say "I'm sorry" and let whatever issues you have drop. Yet it is so easy to turn your back and ignore someone completely, to pretend they don't exsist at all, which in reality can cause a serious pain deeper than you can even imagine and cause serious harm in the long run. It is much the same as being ignored, how would you feel about being in the same room with many other people and completely ignored as if you did not even exsist? This is how some people get treated and it is hard for me to understand why, beyond the predators and trolls that is.

My point is this, that pain that is inflicted, the damage that is done and forever caused can never be withdrawn and because most of the time pride gets in the way for people, is left ignored. So what is the outcome of this scenerio you ask why does it matter if Johnny is hated by everyone on the playground? What does it matter if no one likes him he can find somewhere else to play and new people to play with right? What if Johnny has had enough, goes home heart sick over the cruelty of it all, finds a knife and ends it all? Then there will be no more story for Johnny, no more people for him to play with, no second chances for him because no one wanted to help him or give him support when he came looking for it in the first place.

Don't be THAT person to push someone to "Johnny's edge", support them, befriend them and help them. Forgive them when they are mean after you clear your head and have thought about whatever happened. Say you are sorry, Talk easily and remember everyone means something to someone out there because regardless of what they identify as (Dom, switch, sub, trans) everyone is a person first that needs to cared for and addressed.

7 years ago. October 23, 2017 at 3:40 AM

Respect comes in many forms for many different people in this lifestyle, however I think that we can all agree on one very important fact, that is that in order to gain respect, you need to have respect for others.

This works not just one way as in a sub toward a Dom but also a Dom to a sub, a sub to another sub and Dom to other Dom's. One way of showing this is respecting boundry lines and making sure that everyone is cared for and happy. That no one person is singled out because they are new, they are not sure of their place or how they fit in within our community. After all, teaching new members is a vital way we get to ensure safety among our peers.

Sadly today many of our people have fallen for tricks of society and "what is normal" and therefore they impose that into playtime which can be harmful to others. Perhaps it is not meant to be mean or harmful sure. But the simple fact is that a simple action such as telling someone else that what they are doing is wrong, that they need to grow up and stop acting like a child can be very harmful to them.

We all need to take into consideration everyone's kinks and differing personalities and take a few breaths to collect ourselves before we respond to any words said. Bullying affects everyone and can cause great harm in the long run, bullying can lead to depression which when it is combined with other factors such as a stressful home environment can lead to a mental breakdown that can ultimately lead to suicide. Maybe you will not see it now, but over all your words can cause death.

So sit back, as yourself this "Do I want to be the one responsible for the death of another person?" Can you be okay knowing someone else is dead because you got upset? Please be aware of words and actions that can be harmful to others. Watch what you say and be mindful that others may not react well to what you are saying and try to be mindful of their actions as well. We need to bond together not fall apart in these troubled and difficult times we face.

7 years ago. September 21, 2017 at 4:28 AM

Human guy/pup gets lost in the woods while camping with his buddies and falls down a steep muddy slope and can't get back up and hits his head many times and when he gets to to the bottom is knocked out cold. When he wakes up a few days later unable to remember who he is only his pup bane and personality remain. He walks through the woods getting food as he finds it but then a huge snowstorm blows in and he gets all turned around, lost and confused. He tries to get back but he doesn't know where he is going and can't find his way and since he is nor wearing the right winter clothing the cold soon sets in and through his travels he becomes hypothermic. He wanders for days and eventually he sees smoke in the distance but he thinks it is not real but is so desperate for the warmth he goes toward it weak and nearly freezing. He makes it into a clearing through a thick strand of trees and sees a cabin but is so weak he collapses in the snow and passes out cold.

 The man who lives in the cabin comes outside to get more wood from his shed and sees the other man in the snow and hurries to see if he is okay and finds he is not. He takes the man into his cabin and changes him into warm dry clothing and bundles him on the couch by the fireplace then gathers the wood and gets a nice blaze going to get the man warm.

A few days pass and the unconscious man is warmed by the fire and he blankets and the other man feeds him slowly with careful drinks of chicken broth to help him get better. When he finally awakens the snowstorm is still raging outside.

He still doesn't remember anything about himself but his puppy side and the other man is understanding and willing to work with him since he is a puppy handler and trainer.

They work together for a while for a while and slowly the man is eventually able to regain his memories through his training and finds he was unhappy with his life before now and is really happy here because he is not being judged. He is free to be himself and who he wants not who others expect him to be. He is conflicted about returning to his cold and empty life and frets about it for a few days until finally the snow storm abates, when it does he realizes it is Christmas day and the man he has been staying with has decorated for Christmas by setting up a tree with decorations on it and is preparing a nice meal for them in the kitchen.

 He notices a small box under the tree and becomes curious so he goes to investigate the box and is surprised to find his name on it! When he looks up he finds the other man looking at him gently smiling at him as he sits in an armchair nearby and nodding for him to open the box. When he opens the box he finds a simple slip of paper inside that offers him everything he wants, to stay here with the man. That he could return to the school, finish his semester, gather his things, and then do an internship in forestry and wood working with the man allowing him to be his puppy whenever he wanted to without fear of being judged for it.

 

Please leave a comment on your thoughts and opinons as I would love to hear them. This is a rough outline for the story it is not complete. If there is enough positive interest and feedback I may think about publishing future full length chapters on here of the story to see how it goes if you guys like it. If you have suggestions or comments on how it can be better or what I should change please feel free to say so I welcome it as it might help me write even better, thank you for the input.