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Into the Void

Into the Void. Exactly where my feelings go.
Into the Void. Exactly where I disappear.
Into the Void. Exactly where my relationships progress.
Into the Void. Exactly where you anticipate the origins of monsters.
Into the Void. Exactly where my worth has slid.
Into the Void. Exactly where my success is found.
Into the Void. Exactly where I should return.
9 months ago. February 18, 2024 at 6:50 PM

     i've been in such a dark dismal place recently, that i truly thought i'd never see daylight again.  i have tried, but failed repeatedly.  i tried to making changes, but it never seemed to accomplish anything.  As my friends know, i had totally given up  i didn't think it was possible for me any longer.  i've been a sex toy.  i've been married (and divorced).  i've been a friend.  The magical combination of a romantic relationship and strong dynamic seemed to elude me.  Now, my age is one more negative factor.  It's no wonder that the combination of my emotions with life was too much for me to handle.

 

     Then, i met Someone.  Someone Who desires me.  All of me.  i don't even know how to act.  When i speak, i sound as if my brain has taken a permanent vacation.  W/we're learning each other, and i'm discovering that i truly do want to be His.  i want to be His property, His love, His girl, and His slave.  There's an inherent trust in him that draws me in.  i can't describe how i feel at this moment.  i feel like a princess.  He's the best thing that has ever happened to me.  We have actual conversations.  He truly wants to know about me.  i can feel hope finally returning.  It's a feeling i haven't had in so long.  i hope it doesn't end.  i hope that W/we create the ideal relationship/dynamic for the two of U/us.  i hope to have the opportunity to serve Him.  i hope to show i am a good girl.  i want Him to be proud to add me to His collection of loved possessions.  

 

     While i am still terrified of the potential of completely ruining this wonderful connection, i hope that i will finally succeed.  i don't want this to end.

 

     i know i sound like i'm rambling, but that's exactly how my brain is going at this moment.  i have clearer thoughts, but way more muddled ability to convey them intelligently.  i know He will read this blog, and i do hope He feels honored by it.

ButterfliesAndCuffs​(sub female) - So very happy for you, my friend. You deserve the very best. ❤️🦋
9 months ago
Innocent Me​(sub female){Protected} - Aww...it feels amazing to felt seen and heard. It feels great when someone wants to know all the different parts of you and invests time in getting to know all of you! I'm so happy to see you happy!

Remember: "Your flaws are perfect for the heart that is meant to love you." You are amazing! <3
9 months ago
Sweet Minx​(sub female){NotLooking} - Mama Bear just believe ♡
9 months ago
Sweet Minx​(sub female){NotLooking} - P.s. Blog more 🌼
9 months ago
vasubmama - My Loves, y'all are absolutely AMAZING!!!!! Thank you for making me welcome and loved. I love each and every one of you!
9 months ago
Innocent Me​(sub female){Protected} - I agree with SnowMinx, blog more! :)
9 months ago
vasubmama - I am requesting permission first.
9 months ago
fluffypoppet​(sub female){Protected} - Sounds like a keeper. ☺️☺️☺️
It would be lovely for you to blog more.
9 months ago

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