i realize there is no one definition/explanation as to the meaning of serving another person, even within the confines of lifestyle members. Not only is there a myriad of examples of service, at least as many forms of servants exist. For years, i believed wholeheartedly that the Man should be the household leader. i subscribe to the belief that the Man held the leadership position, while the woman was His partner. To a degree in the vanilla world, this may be the situation. However, it still felt as if i were leading in the relationship.
i discovered that my submission to a Man delves even deeper. i began the transformation from an independent woman to a submissive. The very idea of surrendering any control to another person is unnerving, as it appears to restrain freedom our gender had finally achieved. Still, my emotions and thoughts enjoyed a freedom previously never known. Entrusting major decisions, and even some minor decisions, to the Man gives Him dominance over areas of my life. As such, i began to revert to the protected child, able to enjoy life with a new carefree freedom.
Still, i would attempt to regain the control i had previously granted. It was so obvious, yet it took years, mistakes, and working with different Dominants to realize the actual issue: i wasn’t a submissive, i'm a special form of slave. Once the trust has been established, and i can acknowledge ownership by that special Dom, i willingly choose to surrender completely control. This control isn’t limited to my sexuality. Rather, it transcends to all aspects of my life.
To address a Man as Master, knowing He has chosen me as His property is the ultimate relationship goal i could ever hope to gain. It’s not forced slavery i seek. Instead, it is a slavery of choice. i choose to offer my total and complete submission to Him to use at His discretion. In return, He offers His protection, His compassion, His sadism, His ownership, and potentially His love. i choose to serve Him with every aspect of my existence, while He chooses to own me as His priceless possession. In my slavery, i serve His every need and desire. In His ownership, He serves my base requirement for protection, guidance, structure, and discipline. W/we exchange O/our offerings to bind the commitment between us.
