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1 week ago. Wed 15 Jan 2020 04:47:24 AM IST

Wow, it's been since Christmas since I posted and November 30 since I posted something other than "Merry Christmas". I have been reading posts and commenting, but not done one on here in a bit.

One reason would be work has gotten... well, hectic is too mild lol. Beginning of year in insurance is Hell time lol. Though good side is LOTS of overtime!! 😁😁

Downside to this overtime and hectic time? I can sometimes become like the following song 

 

 

Especially my Little. 

She can take small things and exaggerate them. She doesn't do this a lot, but when she does it is big lol. 

One reason I love my journal is so I can write down what bugs me. While I know I can talk about anything, sometimes having the journal helps more.

But this is to thank Daddy Dragon for being patient with me yesterday and this morning when I was in a bad mood. 

1 month ago. Thu 26 Dec 2019 03:03:25 AM IST

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to everyone here on the Cage. I hope Santa took into consideration that all your naughtiness was for games and fun 😈😁

1 month ago. Sat 30 Nov 2019 06:24:58 PM IST

Today I am thankful for me. Every part of me. My sub, my Little, my masochist, my slave, my stubbornness and my independence.

I have learned in the last 19 months more about myself than I have in a long time. Because of this understanding and acceptance, I have grown more and become better. I have allowed myself to become more open to ideas and enjoy this.

My complaint today is that one of my candle molds isn't working correctly, no matter how many times I work on it.

1 month ago. Sat 30 Nov 2019 07:09:09 AM IST

Today I am thankful for love, in every form. 

If there's one thing I've learned in my 39 years, it's that you can't grow or learn without love. You need love so that you try to be better. You need it to realize your potential.

Without it, you don't try. You don't feel. You don't grow.

Not everyone will be your soulmate or one and only, but everyone will impact you. If you love them and/or they love, it will impact what you do.

My complaint is not always seeing that love. I've met people that I didn't realize at the time cared for me. Whether because I didn't pay attention or I didn't realize they could care, I didn't get it. I try to notice better now, but sometimes it is something I still work on.

1 month ago. Thu 28 Nov 2019 01:55:27 PM IST

Today I am thankful for this site and everyone here (yes even the fake Doms and subs). I have learned so much here by reading other's thoughts in blogs or forums, talking over messages and realizing that my wants and needs are normal and fun 😊 Plus without this site I wouldn't have my Daddy Dragon 😁😘

My complaint is alarms that go off when you aren't working. I swear I turned the bugger off, but noooo. It still goes off at 5am. So now I am over half awake when I could be sleeping in *pouty face*

 

1 month ago. Thu 28 Nov 2019 06:34:56 AM IST

Today I am thankful for my toys. Besides the obvious joy from them, I've also learned from playing with them. I've learned what I like and dislike. I've also learned a little on my limits, though some I have yet to reach. 

My complaint is my over anxiousness. I get very excited to try new things and learn news things, which I sometimes think comes out wrong. I think I need to rein it in, but at same time doing so doesn't sound right. 

1 month ago. Wed 27 Nov 2019 07:14:37 AM IST

Today I am thankful for grumpy people. They make me appreciate things more, because I realize I don't want to be like them. I dislike when people call up my work and yell, thinking that by yelling I will fix everything or that it will make me intimidated. I have a 13 year old son who, at age 7, ran away from home/babysitter after throwing a book at her head. You yelling at me is not intimidating. But because you yell, it makes me realize I don't want to be you. So I am much calmer when I am upset at customer service person. Then, if I yell, I apologize bc I know the person on the phone cannot do anything and is not responsible for the issue directly.

However, my complaint is same grumpy people. While they don't intimidate me, they tend to piss me off and make my day seem to go downhill. I shouldn't let this happen. It is me that lets them bug me, so it is me that needs to stop tthat.Just some times are harder than others.

2 months ago. Mon 25 Nov 2019 06:39:19 PM IST

Today I am thankful for my backyard. I haven't had one in years, as the apartments I lived in didn't have much of any yard. But now there is a front AND back, with a small porch on back (though desperately needs redone. Can you say splinters?! 😢) 

The backyard allows for peaceful time away from everyone when everyone home and lets me feel grass under toes, wind at face and just very relaxing spot.

Complaint/owning responsibility is cold. I live in MO which gets cold in winter, which in turn makes being outside difficult. Now, I could be outside for a bit if I bundled up more, grabbed a chair to sit on and basically fixed a warm corner on my porch for me... now thinking on that I may see what is needed for that. May change complaint into a thankful later on 😊

2 months ago. Sun 24 Nov 2019 03:28:35 PM IST

Today I am thankful for my phone. Not only is it used to call and text people, but it has my reminders, alarms, games, books, etc on it. I can jump (autocorrect tried to put hump lol) from game to game, then start reading a new book. It is a wonderfully helpful tool.

Today I am taking responsibility for waking up at 11pm (not my fault) and instead of trying to go back to sleep playing on my phone for over 3 hours (completely my fault). I have a bad tendency of randomly waking up in middle of the night (so if you see me online after 10pm CST that is why). Usually I fall back asleep fairly easily. Not last night. After talking to my sister for 90 minutes (I called her, as she is night owl), I then decided to say Rosary (have not done in while and thought "Need to start and am awake."), browse Facebook, update my profile picture, email Daddy Dragon app pictures I had done, look at said app and similar ones to see if anything to color, text my sister I'm not tired, do another picture from app... you get the idea. By 3am I put phone down but took at least 30 more minutes to fall asleep. And of course there is church service I have to get ready for in an hour. As much as I love my phone, I dislike my... energetic response to it at 1am.

2 months ago. Sun 24 Nov 2019 03:06:16 AM IST

I've decided for the rest of the month to combine the two. Thought it would be easier that way 😁

First, I am thankful for stuffies. Even before I realized I'm a little, I've always had stuffies. Now my big bear is there for Daddy Dragon. She's always on my bed, positioned so I'm laying between her legs with head on her chest. I hold her for aftercare also, hearing Daddy Dragon's voice while laying there. Stuffies have always been my go to when upset as well, holding them as comfort. And I think will continue to be so.

Second, I dislike consequences of not following directions. Not given by a Dom necessarily, but in general. Example: I tried to make something new today and it didn't turn out very well. Main reason is because I didn't follow the steps exactly. So instead of a good finished product, I have an eh finished product. It is usable, but not very good. I learned my lesson and fully take responsibility for not following the steps exactly, but dislike the consequence.