ok im going to just plain tell you all what have been going on and why i have been gone for so long. i have made the choice to leave my husband and file for divorce and to start living my life for me and also to be happy and that is the main reason i have left him i have gotten all my stuff out and i'm safe and staying with a friend and that is all that matters. i'm very happy with my decison and i have not made this choice very lightly i have thought it over and over. but i have to do what makes me happy and is right for me. i hope he finds his truly happy ending. so i have been dealing with this and also my anxity has gotten really bad and i ended up in the hospital because of it but i will get thru it cause im a strong women and i know this now. so i will try to post a blog more but do know that i'm not trying to hide from any of you or cause any issues. im trying to keep fixing me.