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The Ray of June

We are complex creatures after all.
2 months ago. Tue 01 Jan 2019 11:17:53 AM IST

Unlike what most people think, it is never too late to be what you wish to be.

 

New is the year, new are the hopes, with courage and confidence, give wings to your dreams.

 

May the 12 months of new year be filled with happiness and joys you all truly deserve.

 

May all your dreams come true and all your hopes be fulfilled!

 

Happy new year everyone..

2 months ago. Thu 27 Dec 2018 10:52:06 AM IST

I wanted the heat and the sweat and the passion of a man that I could love and trust. And I wanted to give myself to him: not for advantage, but for desire.

Philippa Gregory

2 months ago. Thu 27 Dec 2018 01:03:58 AM IST

 

You mean happiness to me...

 

 

 

3 months ago. Thu 20 Dec 2018 12:45:04 AM IST

I've heard people say that
Too much of anything
Is not good for you baby
But... I don't know about that
...As many times as we've loved,
Shared love, and made love
It doesn’t seem to me
Like it's ever, ever enough
It's just not enough...

3 months ago. Fri 14 Dec 2018 02:04:36 AM IST

We watch romantic movies that show us the importance of love and the sense of it and imagine what love may do to us and how it may change our view of life..

We read stories and novels about love and its power, how we feel beautiful and feel the taste of happiness in our heart..

The more we read and watch, the more we feel the aspiration to experience it and the more we feel the challenge to reach the greatest of love with someone..

 

How many of you (single or in a relationship) have thought of that? How many of you felt hopeless and said "I will not find such love", "I don’t feel like that with my partner" or thought "I need that but It's just a movie and it's just an unrealistic story, not a real one" or even start to think "I probably don’t deserve a love like that".

 

I am pretty sure that there are many of you thought of that and closed the doors on yourselves and built unbreakable walls, surrendered to the idea that you will not find that happiness and will not experience the great perfect love that you desire..

 

Do not make that mistake, do not torment yourself by hiding and giving up, because you can find such love but you should start loving yourself first, to love all your flaws, mistakes and blunders, to accept yourself as it is and to teach yourself that there is NO PERFECTION in anything in this life, everyone has faults.

 

"Value yourself! Accept yourself! Grow and learn from challenges and mistakes, but don’t beat yourself up over them. Be kind to yourself! Love yourself!" Elana Mizrahi.

 

Do not give up, learn and accept to love everything with its imperfection.. Perfection does not exist and never will exist.

 

"If you have it in your head that somewhere out there a perfect relationship is possible, you won't be able to accept the imperfection of who is standing before you." Sheryl Paul.

 

Everything may be perfect, beautiful and wonderful in a person "like in movies and books" but that does not mean that you are compatible with them.. Does not mean that they complete you, does not mean that they are the ones who will fill your empty heart.. Only YOU can do that!
So it is NOT about being in a perfect relationship.
Therefore, stop thinking, questioning, rejecting and killing every hope to find the greatest love of your life..
Love yourself and you will find THAT love.. You have to believe that without enough self-love, you are not capable of actually loving others or accepting what they are giving you. When you feel that you are insignificant and full of self-hatred, you will be less satisfied and less positive about your relationship.

 

"Getting out of the idea that your love is supposed to be perfect is the first step in creating the kind of love you want in this world. Love isn't perfect." Megan Mann.

 

When you love yourself and accept everything about yourself, you will not need the additional love that someone else gives you, you will choose the other person because YOU want to be with them, because life is better when you are together. When you love yourself, you will appreciate the love of others but you will NOT need it to reach happiness. When you really love yourself, you will not wish for things to be different when you watch a romantic movie or read a love story book, because it is already there but you choose not to see it!

 

Love yourself and STOP comparing your love life with what you watch in movies or read in books.. Just look at your existing relationship and understand that every little thing about it, is the PERFECT IMPERFECTION.. And it is your greatest LOVE.

3 months ago. Thu 22 Nov 2018 01:35:02 PM IST

When I was younger, I used to have all the features of a talkative person. I used to talk to everyone and anyone and tell them everything, sharing news, gossiping even with total strangers, giving too much information, always ready to start a never-ending conversation…etc.
But I learned and knew that it was not a good thing.
I changed my character over time, and it didn’t happen overnight, there were other factors in my life leading up to the many changes in my personality. 
I became quiet person and I don't tell anyone about my life, daily events, adventures, secrets, dreams or stories only very rarely.  I became reticent and secretive. I don’t see it as something important to be saying more about myself and I don't feel the necessity to talk about everything that goes in my mind and what happens with me or around me. I don’t engage in everyday conversations with anyone anymore. Discreet, is the first thing anyone will notice about me now, and that pisses off many people in my life specially those who know me well and know that I wasn’t like that.
 
But with "Sir" it's different.
As if for all these years I have been hushing all my urges to chat, just waiting for him to enter my life and explode with words and tell him everything.
It doesn’t matter if it is complainig or just normal chat, if my words are just fantasies or dreams, if it's about ambitions and goals, if it's a chat about busy daily routine or something happened ages ago, it doesn’t matter if the conversation is about interesting things or silly and insignificant things.
 
"How is everything going pumpkin?"
It only takes one question from "Sir" and I start talking about NOTHING and EVERYTHING.
 

He changed my sense of life, I become my old self again.

I felt it again, the meaning of sharing everything. But this time is different because it's not with anyone! It's with someone special and precious. With a significant person who values me.

I knew that I had been closed to myself all these years and I told myself that I was fine and would not lose or gain anything if I stayed quiet and silent and didn’t share my life with someone. But it's different now, I realized how wrong I was.

I realized that the value of communication and the ability to talk to a significant person doesn’t rest on sharing feelings only, but sharing every little thing that happens with us in life.

It's wonderful and adorable that he is capable of showing interest in my conversations, no matter how deep or superficial.

I know that even if I told him that I wish I was a mermaid he would tell me his favorite color to choose for the bra and tail. He will not make fun of me. He will not laugh at me. He will not tell me how silly or senseless I am to talk about it.

 

You're the shelter I seek
You're the refuge I take 
You're my open door
You're my sanctuary  



"Sir" listens to me with love.

He pays me attention with sincerity and devotion.

He gives me his precious time to let me say whatever I want to say.

He doesn’t feel bored with me and doesn't feel that he's obligated to hear me but he does so because he wants to do so.

And I appreciate everything he's giving me and I can't stop thanking him for that. 

Thank you "Sir".

4 months ago. Sat 17 Nov 2018 12:25:36 PM IST

It's enough

Enough

Enough

I had enough

I no longer feel the purpose of life

I am crumbling

I have exhausted all my options, energy and strength

Now I am numb

Disoriented

Detached

I tried

I tried to feel better

Do better

But I can't

I failed

I cried

I stopped breathing

I fainted

I got up and went back to crying

I cried

I stopped breathing

I fainted
And I came back to life again
Searching left and right
Seeking oxygen
I needed oxygen
Can I breathe?
I need to breathe
But how?
 
Misery
Tremendous pressures
Growing accumulation of problems
Obstructions
Stress
Depress
Uncomfortable
Painful experiences
Frustrations
Continuous failures
Disappointment
Unhappiness
Worthless
Guilty
Loss of interest or pleasure in everything
Thoughts about death and suicide
 
Is there a name for all that?
"Yes, hello. My name is SLOW DEATH"
 
Slow death
Yup
It's a slow death
 
I lost control of my mind
I lost control of my life
I lost control of everything going on around me
It is not something new, but it is also not an old thing
But I am not used to it yet
I need more time to process
I need more time to do better
I can't
Black
Everything is black
Bitterness is eating me
Life is burying me alive
 
But I think of "Sir" and I smile….
 

 

4 months ago. Fri 16 Nov 2018 11:11:20 PM IST

It doesn’t matter if the guy is perfect or the girl is perfect, as long as they are perfect for each other.

4 months ago. Wed 14 Nov 2018 11:54:02 PM IST

4 months ago. Mon 12 Nov 2018 08:58:53 PM IST

By Owain L. Derbyshire

 

Words simply can't describe
My feelings for you,
For my feelings are so many
But words, they are so few.

Encouragement you give me
And a connection that is true.
I'm glad while reaching out
I found someone like you.

You give your love so sweetly.
I am lost if you are away.
You have me so completely.
I cherish you night and day.

You make me laugh
When I want to cry.
You make me happy
When you don't even try.

Your laugh makes me smile.
You make my life a better place.
I love everything about you.
You're someone I could never replace.