1 week ago. Sun 04 Nov 2018 04:58:21 AM IST
I want to submit to him...
I want to give in to his touch
Give into his desires
Give into the pure ecstasy that has been promised so many times
Uttered sinfully deep in the night...
See the look of pride and pleasure in his eyes as I bring to fulfillment our dirty little fantasies
I wish to show him how fun a feisty fiery woman can be...
Show him that being his "baby girl" would be the best thing that can ever happen to him... to us...
Such a forbidden experience... it has been played out in my dreams plenty of times
Too many times!
I wish it could be real
I wish it could happen
It never happens...
I get so close to having the one thing I can never grasp in this cold cruel world.
Get so near to the loving light of a REAL Dom... a REAL man...
He's so good, we'd be so great!
But... well... like so many times before
It seems anything too good is never mine to have.
Only to look at
to long for
to pine for
to ache for
I only get to view it from a distance...so close but never close enough
to touch, to taste, to feel, to bring into my senses... to bring into me...
To love and cultivate and nuture and care for
I promise I don't just want to take I want to give and give and give.
You deserve so much Sir
You deserve someone that will make you happy
That will be concerned about you for once
You give so much to everyone all the time I just-
I just think you deserve me...
But who knows...maybe it isn't meant to be
Maybe I am to live this life
Always burning for something I can never have...
Calling for someone who will never answer
Sending SOS over so many frequencies but only getting static
Or the random reponses from those who only want to please themselves with my body...with my heart
Maybe...maybe I don't deserve him...
Or anyone like him
Maybe I never deserve anyone...
Oh here's the woe is me bit again.
I hate feeling like this.
I'll just have to remain patient.
If not for him...for someone... one day...
one day... maybe...
If only wishes came true
If only the shooting stars in the sky were magical again
Like they used to be when we were young
Now I only know them as dieing stars and burning debris
No magic...no fairytales
Shit...if only wishes came true