Finding Her.

I overestimate my importance in people's lives. And a part of me wonders.. am I that insignificant? I'm not asking in a depressed way, just genuine curiosity. 

I would argue that there are individuals in my life that I would give everything for. I care so very deeply. So fucking deeply. To a fault. To a scary place, even. And although I know it's unrequited, I"m still overshooting it somehow. It's like... "I know you don't care, but can you tell me good morning?" And even that, is somehow aiming. too. high.

That was an oversimplification, sure. However, my theory, my... curiosity still stands. 

I used to shoot for first place. Now.. I'm shooting for fifth. Should I shoot for sixth?

Am I aiming too high?

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