I know it's been a while but I feel it's time to write. My Daddy Dom and I have been together over a year now. We have lived together for nearly 7 months and have truly enjoyed each other. During this time we lived as DD/LG and as Bf/Gf. I know they are one in the same but in my mind they are two separate entities. I think that helps me keep my patience and purpose in check. I know at the same time it only keeps my walls up. Always ready to run in a moment's notice. I don't know why I'm like that but I know I wasn't always. See a couple of ago we had a change in our life due to health reasons. During this time our DD/LG dynamic seemed to slip away into the background in my mind. I know Daddy didn't see out this way, but I did. I knew I cared for this man and I wanted nothing more than to see him happy and healthy. So I put my desires aside and did what I had to do, what I do best, and care for him. I don't mean physically but mentally. During that time I think something shifted in my mind. I started to wonder if our bond was only because he was a Daddy. Was there more to us? Was it all just the dynamic? I mean I like him as a person and love the man that he is. We have fun and every day. I can't ever say I've had a man like him in my life before. A man that takes care of me and who I enjoy seeing so happy. I'm genuinely excited to see that he's back on track to a better him. So why is it that I feel like I want to run? Ready to see what's out there knowing damn well it won't be any greener over there than it is here!??? Still just as fucked up as ever.