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Its been almost 2 weeks with my new Dom. We have worked and played together everyday. I am so thankful to be with a skillful, knowledgeable and patient Daddy Dom as SirZozo. He sees me....all of me...and has begun to make me feel comfortable in my skin for the first time in many years. He's shown me that I can be more than one type of sub and not only was that "ok", but he is versatile enough to cater to all my desires. Its only been a couple of weeks but it feels much longer. During our time I am learning to let go and give myself completely to my Dom. Which I know I've needed reminders along the way. ? Oh and I now have a love/hate relationship with forced orgasms! I am thoroughly enjoying my time with my Daddy, my Sir, my Dom.
4 weeks ago. Jan 18, 2020, 4:39 PM

I know it's been a while but I feel it's time to write. My Daddy Dom and I have been together over a year now. We have lived together for nearly 7 months and have truly enjoyed each other. During this time we lived as DD/LG and as Bf/Gf. I know they are one in the same but in my mind they are two separate entities. I think that helps me keep my patience and purpose in check. I know at the same time it only keeps my walls up. Always ready to run in a moment's notice. I don't know why I'm like that but I know I wasn't always. See a couple of ago we had a change in our life due to health reasons. During this time our DD/LG dynamic seemed to slip away into the background in my mind. I know Daddy didn't see out this way, but I did. I knew I cared for this man and I wanted nothing more than to see him happy and healthy. So I put my desires aside and did what I had to do, what I do best, and care for him. I don't mean physically but mentally. During that time I think something shifted in my mind. I started to wonder if our bond was only because he was a Daddy.  Was there more to us? Was it all just the dynamic? I mean I like him as a person and love the man that he is. We have fun and  every day. I can't ever say I've had a man like him in my life before. A man that takes care of me and who I enjoy seeing so happy. I'm genuinely excited to see that he's back on track to a better him. So why is it that I feel like I want to run? Ready to see what's out there knowing damn well it won't be any greener over there than it is here!??? Still just as fucked up as ever.

3 months ago. Nov 17, 2019, 7:09 AM

So after being hit with the crop and being tied, gagged and tortured with relentless orgasms....here's what I've determined. 

1. I dont like to see my Daddy upset.

2. Nothing worth having is easy.

3. I can help myself by removing temptations.

I wanted to explore having sex with other men. I wanted to explore playing with other men. Daddy said no. This made me upset and made me want to rebel more. Finally I realized that my relationship with my Daddy is worth more than me trying to "get even" or "level the playing field". My Daddy takes care of me and my son. He helps me every day at home. I would never give that up. I'll have to wait to see what comes next. Until then...i will work on my commitment as His sub.

3 months ago. Nov 15, 2019, 5:47 AM

It's not an easy journey, this life I chose. Of course, I knew it would not be. What I did not account for was just how much of the troubles would be by my own hand.
I was in control of my life and all decisions were mine. All impulses were mine to decide which to indulge and which to walk away from.
Relinquishing my freedoms and liberties has not been easy. I want to let it all go yet fight him at every turn. I do not blame him for throwing his hands up after feeling that his voice was not heard.
I am a proud, independent and strong willed woman. I see what I want and get it. Why then can I not just let go? What stops me? Why do I fight for equality? Am I not a true sub?? Have I evolved past my original goal?
I don't want to hurt anyone anymore. I want him to be happy regardless of who that's with.

3 months ago. Nov 7, 2019, 2:51 AM

Time has flown by and we have had so many milestones. There are times where I wonder if Daddy can fulfill all my needs and vice versa, am I able to be all he wants. I love how we can talk about that stuff openly and its okay! He asked me if he was enough for me. I'm thinking the fact that he was even concerned with my feelings is proof enough! No his kink may not be my kink but we're open minded and committed to finding a solution that works for the both of us. My fantasy of having a "House" one day will come true, I have no doubt. A place for subs and switches to play and enjoy the fruits of our labor. I know we're not normal. But I like it that way!

4 months ago. Oct 10, 2019, 2:58 AM

So many changes in my life recently. I changed career paths and it brought to surface my insecurities with starting someplace brand new as "the new kid". My stomach was in knots for weeks. I'm glad that part is past me and I am settling in. However, in my attempt to work in a less stressful environment, I now find myself working longer hours. I'm away from home more and it makes me sad to be away from my home (and those in it) for so long. I have relied heavily on my Daddy to help get me through. I feel myself spin and he's there to stop me. He's my rock; my everything. All my work is for US. I would give more, if I could. He takes care of me so well. We are even more focused on each other and our common goals. Living every day life and keep our eye on our target has been challenging & frustrating at times but we are committed to trying and that's what's important. Oh and also making time to play too!!

4 months ago. Sep 19, 2019, 4:19 PM

...and I liked it! Nope, no taste of cherry Chapstick but I did thoroughly enjoy the softness of her lips and tongue against mine. I finally had my first girl kiss and I gotta say...I want more. 👄💋

5 months ago. Sep 14, 2019, 4:11 AM

Its been a while since I've taken this test so I found the results rather interesting!

 

== Results from bdsmtest.org ==
95% Rope bunny
85% Pet
71% Non-monogamist
64% Experimentalist
62% Submissive
58% Masochist
58% Switch
52% Owner
46% Brat
45% Slave
44% Master/Mistress
43% Degradee
42% Dominant
42% Daddy/Mommy
33% Primal (Prey)
25% Rigger
19% Vanilla
17% Boy/Girl
10% Brat tamer
7% Ageplayer
7% Sadist
5% Primal (Hunter)
3% Voyeur
2% Exhibitionist
0% Degrader

5 months ago. Sep 5, 2019, 9:59 PM

Its been 9 months since my Daddy and I met and begin our journey. Since then he has helped identify parts of me I didn't even know existed. He nurtured her and helped her grow into a pretty little girl with big brown eyes who loves her Daddy to no end! Let anyone try and do him harm and you'll see a not so pretty side to me.

Among all the changes include the potential addition of a "sister". Daddy discovered her and we have had more than one sleepover already. I don't play with her like I thought I might. We still have to get to know each other, I know. I suppose it was silly to think we would hit it off right from the start. She is such a sweet woman and has been such a tremendous help around our home. I'm just happy that Daddy is happy with her and her progress so far. He loves the newness she has and how much work he has ahead of him. I like to see him happy.

As for me, I am still adjusting and don't mind sharing him like I thought I might. Strange. But being able to touch and feel him at night is something I know now is a must! I have to be able to feel him throughout the night. He's my safety and my comfort.  Everyday he helps me unwind and process my workday. My little is happy and at peace.

However, still a small part of me yearns for more.  I want to unleash the other part of me that craves and desires things that make a little blush! Sooner rather than later I hope!

5 months ago. Aug 30, 2019, 12:35 AM

Its not a secret that my Daddy and I have had a saw ups and downs as we live our journey open for the world to see (and secretly judge). I told myself when I started this blog that I would be honest and write about the good and the bad. I wanted other subs out there to see what living the D/s lifestyle on a 24/7 basis is like (from my perspective). I wanted them to know its not all sex and fantasy all the time. 

Well it has been quite the difficult process in trying to find another woman to join us. Someone that appealed to both of us equally. Someone who had enough to give to us and receive what we both have to give as well. I'm excited to say that we may have Finally found her!!

We all started talking and instantly felt a connection. We even spent the night together too! I am so excited to start this new phase of our lives together. 

Happy I found my new "sister in training"!

👭😍

5 months ago. Aug 22, 2019, 6:50 PM

How did I get here? Every road I take leads me back here. Here in my self imposed world where only mirrors surround me forcing me to see everything. All the happiness, tears, abuse, sadness, ignorance, denial, selfishness and self destruction. I hate what I see but not only can I not look away...I continue the cycle. 
"This time its different", she says convincingly.
"This time I know I've changed", she says confidently. 
Why? How? When did I think each path would lead me to my dream. My dream in which you play my body like a finely tuned instrument; making beautiful music together. My dream in which you know my inner most coveted thoughts and fantasies; waiting for me to let go. What do I hold on to? Delusions and wolves in sheep's clothing. My dream in which kind hearts and trusting nature is cherished and rewarded. 
I grow weary and dull of caring the weight of this world I created. Lonely and hopeless I trudge on. No rest for the gullible and naive. I continue to search for the path that leads me to you.