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Its been almost 2 weeks with my new Dom. We have worked and played together everyday. I am so thankful to be with a skillful, knowledgeable and patient Daddy Dom as SirZozo. He sees me....all of me...and has begun to make me feel comfortable in my skin for the first time in many years. He's shown me that I can be more than one type of sub and not only was that "ok", but he is versatile enough to cater to all my desires. Its only been a couple of weeks but it feels much longer. During our time I am learning to let go and give myself completely to my Dom. Which I know I've needed reminders along the way. ? Oh and I now have a love/hate relationship with forced orgasms! I am thoroughly enjoying my time with my Daddy, my Sir, my Dom.
1 week ago. Mon 15 Apr 2019 08:38:11 PM IDT

I love the Kill Bill movies and its because of one person in particular...Beatrix Kiddo. She makes me want to kick ass for what I hold dear to me, keep fighting for what I believe in, all with compassion and respect for I am.

My most favorite song, besides the infamous whistle tune sung by Elle Driver, is this one. It basically means, let me love you to make up for the riches I cannot provide.

I am not a submissive bc I wanted a Sugar Daddy/Mama who was also a Dom to take care of me. I am a submissive only to a Dom I deem worthy enough to stand in for me in my battles, while I rest and regenerate, before heading back into battle again. 

 

For you Sir...

 

2 weeks ago. Fri 05 Apr 2019 07:56:11 PM IDT

Rule over me, reel me in.

Pin me down, can't control the spin.
Demand my obedience as only you know how.
Show me you own me.
It soothes me somehow.
Why can't you see me begging to be used?
Play with me! Punish me!
Can't you hear me calling for you??
Push me to my breaking point...
Hold it, don't stop.
Can't you see I need this?
Wait I can't! Please stop!!
We know all too well my cries are pointless.
I didn't mutter the word.
Without a hesitation, your hunger relentless.
Humiliate me.
Use me.
Make me numb deep inside.
My body longs to be cradled by you.
Your strength is intoxicating.
I'm hooked; your prisoner.
I'm tethered to your presence.
My body yours for the taking.

3 weeks ago. Fri 29 Mar 2019 08:40:34 PM IDT

Okay now I want one just because she made it look so simple!!

 

4 weeks ago. Tue 26 Mar 2019 01:23:59 AM IST

Its been a while since I've updated my blog on my training. Training....hmm....I don't know What I feel about this word. I try to remind myself constantly of my Daddy's words of encouragement but they escape me. All I hear in my head is how much I'm messing up. How much I have to learn. Why cant I get my mind straight? Why can't I "hang it up" and leave the vanilla world behind when I get home? How can I want to be a submissive and live the life if I can't even get out of my own way?? I'm venting and writing it all out in hopes that by putting it out here, I can move on. I know I'm doing well and that my Daddy likes me just the way I am. I am being hard on myself...its what I do even though I know it never helps. 

 

 

 

1 month ago. Sun 17 Mar 2019 04:53:34 PM IST

Its St. Patrick's Day and Im not Irish so Im not wearing green! Maybe Daddy will pinch me someplace special!! 

1 month ago. Thu 14 Mar 2019 03:51:33 AM IST

I know people tell you to wait when you face disappointments or rejection. You know, "good things come to those who wait". While I do believe that to be true for some situations, I am glad that I did not sit and wait for my Daddy to find me. There were many times I wanted to give up, step back, or take a break but each time, I just couldn't go through with it. I was determined to have what I wanted and the same goes for now. I have my wonderful Daddy and now I want either a sister or a mommy, not quite sure but I'm thinking a little sister would be great! So I created an OKC account. Boy, those women wont know what to make of me!

1 month ago. Sun 10 Mar 2019 04:57:50 AM IST

Is it wrong of me to want to share my Daddy/Sir with other littles or newbie subs? I mean, when I first ventured into the lifestyle I was alone and clueless. I had to kiss  quite a few frogs before finding my prince and some of those frogs were "horny toads" and "bullfrogs" too.

As a Little, the world was a big and scary place and I wouldn't wish that experience on anyone. I tell Daddy that I wish I could have a house filled with others just like me so they can have a safe place to be themselves. He tells me he knows he couldn't do more than maybe 2 of me and that would be it but I believe in him! Maybe if I bat my big brown eyes at him and beg him he might consider doing it!

1 month ago. Wed 27 Feb 2019 08:00:28 PM IST

I never knew forced orgasms could be a bad thing, till I met you.
I never knew orgasms could come in so many different ways, till I met you.
I never had an orgasm bring me to cry tears of pain from the corners of my heart hidden away for so many years.
I never new a sadist could inflict wield more than whips and paddles, till I met you.
My mind never so filled as it has been with thoughts of you.
You hold me when I need it and even when I don't.
You force me past my limits kicking down my walls and showing me how needless they now are.
You accept me for my strengths and weaknesses and make me love myself.
Expanding my horizons, I now see life from a different point of view.
I never knew anyone who would trust me with no exception, till I met you.
I never knew what I was truly capable of, till I met you.

1 month ago. Mon 25 Feb 2019 09:11:44 PM IST

2 months ago. Fri 22 Feb 2019 03:26:38 AM IST

I am not looking forward to tonight's events.  Tonight I am being punished for forgetting my place with Daddy yesterday. We were working on a project together and my stressful day on top of the task at hand got the better of me and I snapped at Daddy when he was trying to keep me grounded by lightening the mood. Ugh....shedding the negative habits of my former self is a struggle. I'll have tonight to remind me of the consequences of forgetting.