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Getting back into this..

Kind if nervous, but I know it's time. I have waited a while to make sure I'm ready for this. My last gf was also my mistress, when she cheated I lost two worlds. That was a long while ago now. I'm trying to find that trust again and hopefully this website helps... just a collarless pup looking to please and enjoy my time with a new mistress. :) I'm ready.
2 weeks ago. Jun 30, 2020, 3:22 PM

what are your thoughts on being friends with an ex? Are you now? Would you or have you been? Is it a bad thing? Here's some context I guess. For about 8 months I was a dom for a little. We went our seperate ways but remained friends, it was a nice experiance to not have a relationship end on us never talking again. I still help her out, im not her caregiver anymore but I will buy things she needs or wants to try and make sure she's happy. Last night while we were chatting she told me she started seeing someone. I'm very happy for her but I feel strange about it all, not exactly sad because my intentions on remaining friends were just that. I'm just not sure how I feel exactly. Again, I'm glad she's found someone, but maybe I haven't moved on? Maybe I feel that I won't be needed/wanted around anymore?...  Can I get your thoughts? 

2 weeks ago. Jun 24, 2020, 6:05 PM

took the bdsm test a while back and retook it the other day. Same results and I feel amazing about seeing it down on paper lol makes me feel great!! :)

4 months ago. Mar 10, 2020, 9:11 PM

March 9th was my bday, I look forward to what this decade brings me! Lol I want new experiences with new people. I want to be a part of peoples circles and become family. I hope I can achieve these goals. Fingers crossed! I'm happy. That's rare lol

7 months ago. Nov 24, 2019, 9:04 AM

I found out why she left... she cheated. With a girl... I put myself out there unconditionally and end up in the same place I was everytime. Hurt, alone, lost... I lose 2 worlds yet again. And I dont know if I'll every try again. It's been 2 days now since I've eaten, I cant keep food down.. I slept for 16 hours and only got up cause I had to. I dont see a light anymore... 

7 months ago. Nov 20, 2019, 1:59 AM

I try and I try... I honestly dont think anything will work out for me... I just want to be treated right, I just want to be scared for.... but everything I finally feel like I can be open life throws me down.... I'm sorry I'm such a downer, no im not looking for sympathy, I dont have anywhere I can vent... or anyone I can vent to about these matters... I feel lost and stuck... I just want to be happy.

1 year ago. Feb 21, 2019, 7:31 PM

So things have started looking up! This weekend I'm meeting with someone iv been chatting with for dinner. This feeling I have is one I haven't experienced in quite a long time... I love it! Being happy that I can Express who I am and how I feel about things is great. And to everyone reading this and to those who have helped me out by chatting with me about what I want, thank you! I really like the people in "the cage". 

1 year ago. Feb 17, 2019, 8:29 PM

I believe iv found out somthing new about myself! It feels different but I for some reason enjoy it. When I looked into it the word I found was an exhibitionist... I think i really enjoy showing some things off... haha iv always hated pictures and haven't been too photogenic, but when I dont have to have my face in the picture..  it's a different story haha learning news things about myself daily :P I like it.

1 year ago. Feb 15, 2019, 7:55 AM

I decided against staying in today. It was a good choice. Granted it felt a little off (couples everywhere of course) haha but I went to my favorite sushi place. I thought at first it would be awkward going out to eat alone today. Yes, it sort of was haha but it was nice as well. Felt good for myself, Valentine's day is a special day to me. So, single or not today, love one another, and love yourself. :)

"I love myself. The quietest. Simplest. Most powerful. Revolution. Ever."

:)

1 year ago. Feb 14, 2019, 4:22 PM

Hope everyone has a wonderful day. Happy Valentine's day. 

1 year ago. Feb 14, 2019, 4:55 AM

Tomorrow is a day that means a lot to me. But for so long now it's just been the same as any other day. I hope everyone in every kind of relationship has the best Valentine's day yet. Cant wait till I can celebrate a Valentine's day again.