Empty of what I want.

*strong language possible as I write.*


I'm in an area in Gulfport Mississippi where everyday I look and look and I cant find anything that I'm looking for I dont don't know what to do. the last time a post was made by a female or even a Male "because I checked" has been months ago. I crave so much for a person to be my little, my sub, my pet, all of it. I cant find anyone to be that or anything like that. I cant go out of state and online to me is nothing but for talking and honestly just getting off every now and then and I dont find meaning behind it but I need help I'm trying to learn to deal with online because at this point I feel like it will be all that I have. I'm currently in a relationship with my sons mother and I love her but I'm not sexually attracted to her anymore after getting into this world. Yes I got into the world without her knowing because I became unfaithful to her for 1 year, and got with a submissive/slave. My sons mother and I where never on bad terms after it happened but I regret it all and wish somedays I could take it back but some days also I wish I was with the sub again I'm currently living with my son's mother. There is so many problems I'm having with my please I need a pen pal something someone help me...