Question: How and When did you realise you are a submissive?
I wasn't aware of my behavior or my actions.
I have an older man that works with me. And me being boss I have to take the more dominant role.
Older man: "Did you eat today?"
Me: "No, I didn't have time."
Older man:"That's no excuse, it's not healthy to skip meals." Pulls out a ruler and says hold out your hand and take a punishment.
I look him straight in the eye. "Eyebrow lift" Excuse me? With all seriousness .
All while my hands clinch to my sides out of his view.
Older man:"laughs, I'm playing"
Walks aways, I'd never fought so hard with myself to not pull my hands out for him."mentally shakes head in shock, I'm in trouble."
Well in four more days it will mark one month on this site. Which has been a eye opening experience.
I met some outstanding and amazing people who have been a wide range of information and I feel so blessed. Because the one thing that I have learned is that many people come to this site knowing nothing like myself.
Becoming victims to people they trusted. That is a scary thought. I'm no expert but I know the basics and one thing people taught me here is use my own judgement and follow my gut feelings that if those red flags are sending warnings.
They are most likely right. Now don't get scared, there's amazing and wonderful people on here too.
So best of luck, may we cross paths on this journey in finding our true selves.
No matter what life brings me in my daily life. Learning this lifestyle has brought me peace of mind. No dark corners to hide when you find like-minded souls.
Where others see it as weakness, others see it as strength.
You're never alone when someone has walked the same path, different obstacles ahead,but same destination point.
Learning ways to separate myself from bad habits. By my own admission I procrastinate, I'm always late and I do cuss alot. I do understand why I do it. Mostly rebellious, coming from a strict family of rules I lived and most my adult life breaking them. But I am still courteous, friendly and respectful. But Ive come to realise I have to be perfect for myself to be perfect for my future.
It's my day off... I got to finally get sleep in a bit... After saying G'morning ofcourse.
Ever feel like there is someone hiding in you, that want to come out, but you push her back inside of fear judgment? But when you find a place thats like wonderland and shes like a child in a candy store wanting to run wild and free. Its like grabbing your twin sisters hand fighting, because I don't know what lurks in those dark corners. But deep down inside I want to be free too...
I have to say patience isn't my greatest forte. I'm not used to sharing my feelings but it's a learning process. To hand someone pieces of yourself... A jigsaw... You have to figure out how to put pieces together....unless you lose a piece than I hope you can draw.
Do you struggle in letting go? Big or small?
When you realise that you found something in your self. That you didnt know exists and think wow where the hell have you been. Giving myself a internal hug.
Yes, I'm new...
Ive spent these past week learning and questioning Doms and Subs about the Bdsm. I can't say I'm able learn in a week.I can't promise to remember... Rome wasnt built in a day. But I have learned to recognize certain aspect of myself. And things that I have denied about myself, due to me not understanding that whatever I am, It's ok.
There is nothing wrong about the kinks I like or enjoy knowing about. But thank you to those willing to share, to teach and thank you for the advice and the encouragement to be me even if I am learning.
As I have said I will not walk into a lions den until I have the knowledge of the environment. It would be foolish to be eaten alive...lol
Btw if I messed up somewhere trying to post this.... I so not electronic smart....sorry 😳