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I recently commented about What it's like to be submissive and feeling different towards sexuality and other taboos related to BSDM . Everyone has different ways of expression and submitting so it can vary . I have never been the position to reveal my true worth to people and feel confident about it. For example , Dating was hard for me . My intelligence and curious sexual kinky desires were always not fed . I would feel I wasn't being connected to the right person to evolve . Being an enigma was my typical persona profile when expressing my true desires. However, talking to people in the same picture also helped me on many levels. .I am guy while it is ok and perfectly fine being masculine and strong as a kid I felt like I was much older wanting more than everyone I grew up with . I was not fulfilled being with a girl that did not make me reach for more or educate me on doing different things. She was actually kind of dull for my taste. I have an old soul and always felt differently towards things that include surprise , risk and pleasure . Looking up to a woman from a guys standpoint is different but I feel hot about it. I love pleasing and being a independent thinker towards my own resolve . I was always accused my women that I was not man enough so I always got denied , teased and ignored . I have the capabilities to get in touch with a woman intellectually mentally as well as get their attention but attracting differently people has made me evolve. I have a thing for powerful woman secretly , I love the lifestyle and personality they put out in society because they are also different. I am 25 but people still think im like a boy so they pick on me . Different things. Different toys. Different desires . Different people . I have always been fascinated with different personalities and even women who think outside the box and that could be why I could never connect with certain people . I was destined for bigger things. I always got bored with my connections. How do man deal with this when they have variety on their mind and they get bored with the normal casual tactics of sex and bonding with women? I love to hear your stories . As for woman who are take charge and dominant , I would like to hear your end too because I have heard so many forums how being submissive is unacceptable. I find attraction in things that are different from most. A woman wont stand out if she does not articulate her deepest pleasure and desires. She needs to evolve too. I love the intellect of a woman that is smarter than me , she shows me how much of a challenge she can be. I love opinions and different views . This helps me articulate what I feel and think . I always have a lot going on upstairs and beneath the surface . Talking to people is my forte . As for my initial input, I feel a women's power has always lifted me to new heights. Think differently . I like submitting , I have fantasized about it but never have had the right person to talk about it with and explore. Submission is a big poker chip and a lot men I know Hate it for ego reasons but I find it such turn on of interest for its power dynamics. I love doing everything differently. I feel everyday humiliated and denied like I am not good enough to be by a woman's stature when I see women in public . I have to earn her approval to do anything, it reminds me of a tease, denial , pleasure all way around. I love when they look down on me and I have to look up to them. I have to address her as most important and she owns every right of can use me punish me , whenever she desires . She will give me orders , restrict me which makes me feel a strong primal need to belong to her and worship every pore of her body . I want to feel her strong presence against my small size. I feel she will always be more superior and I am small sized towering over me. I always think about other people like guys who feel this way so this forum is a way to articulate, release, and express your own ideas of submitting to a woman. Adding, I am different breed so I think differently. This isn't for everyone but for me it keeps my life together in a way of stabilization. I am a confident person but I always feel I am missing a big piece. Again, my desires will only be complete with a woman of such nature. The modern relationships and society to don't really belong to me and I dont belong to them . I am not evolving but doing the same thing the same every time. It wasn't meant to be that way. At dances, I always was looking up at the women to satisfy her , she would place her hands on me and look down on me wearing her skirt and high heels that I get pulse on feeling her scent and feminine/masculine presence of me .-Cole