Sub-Consciously

My truth beneath and beyond
2 months ago. Fri 22 Dec 2017 07:42:32 PM IST

2 months ago. Sun 10 Dec 2017 09:42:11 PM IST

I found this a few days  ago and thought I would share it! Hi Ho Ho Ho πŸŽ…πŸ»


🎡On the First day of spankings my Spanker gave to me…….A “whop!” on my naked Hiney! 🎢


🎡On the Second day of spankings my Spanker gave to me ……Two gentle Pats, and a “whop!” on my naked Hiney!🎢


🎡On the Third day of spankings my Spanker gave to me……Three stinging slaps, two gentle Pats, and a “whop!” on my naked Hiney!🎢


🎡On the Fourth day of spankings my Spanker gave to me….. Four gentle Rubs, three stinging Slaps, two gentle Pats, and a “whop!” on my naked Hiney!🎢


🎡On the Fifth day of spankings my Spanker gave to me……Five forceful Swats, four gentle Rubs, three stinging Slaps, two gentle Pats, and a “whop!” on my naked Hiney!🎢


🎡On the Sixth day of spankings my Spanker gave to me……Six loving Lashes, five forceful Swats, four gentle Rubs, three stinging Slaps, two gentle Pats, and a “whop!” on my naked Hiney!🎢


🎡On the Seventh day of spankings my Spanker gave to me……Seven smarting Smacks, six loving Lashes, five forceful Swats, four gentle Rubs, three stinging Slaps, two gentle Pats, and a “whop!” on my naked Hiney!🎢


🎡On the Eighth day of spankings my Spanker gave to me……Eight thumps a Stinging, seven smarting Smacks, six loving Lashes, five forceful Swats, four gentle Rubs, three stinging Slaps, two gentle Pats, and a “whop!” on my naked Hiney!🎢


🎡On the Ninth day of spankings my Spanker gave to me……Nine heavenly Hits, eight thumps a Stinging, seven smarting Smacks, six loving Lashes, five forceful Swats, four gentle Rubs, three stinging Slaps, two gentle Pats, and a “whop!” on my naked Hiney!🎢


🎡On the Tenth day of spankings my Spanker gave to me……Ten sensual Strikes, nine heavenly Hits, eight thumps a Stinging, seven smarting Smacks, six loving Lashes, five forceful Swats, four gentle Rubs, three stinging Slaps, two gentle Pats, and a “whop!” on my naked Hiney!🎢


🎡On the Eleventh day of spankings my Spanker gave to me……Eleven teasing Taps, ten sensual Strikes, nine heavenly Hits, eight thumps a Stinging, seven smarting Smacks, six loving Lashes, five forceful Swats, four gentle Rubs, three stinging Slaps, two gentle Pats, and a “whop!” on my naked Hiney!🎢


🎡On the Twelfth day of spankings my Spanker gave to me……Twelve willing Wallops, eleven teasing Taps, ten sensual Strikes, nine heavenly Hits, eight thumps a Stinging, seven smarting Smacks, six loving Lashes, five forceful Swats, four gentle Rubs, three stinging Slaps, two gentle Pats, and a “whop!” on my naked Hiney!🎢

πŸŽ„May peace, an abundance of joy and continuous love be yours these holidays  ... finding you all has been my joy this year. πŸ’‹ β›„οΈπŸŽ…πŸ»πŸŽπŸŽ„

3 months ago. Thu 23 Nov 2017 06:54:39 AM IST

What Does Vetting Look Like?

If you do any significant amount of reading about D/s you’re sure to encounter the idea that it is the responsibility of each party to ‘vet’ the other before formalizing a relationship. This advice is normally aimed at submissives, and my writing will be too, because it brings me to point number one…

Until the point where a submissive has agreed to enter into the power exchange dynamic it is the submissive who is in control. I know, that’s an uncomfortable thing. We don’t enjoy taking control, and the idea of being responsible for such a big decision is daunting, but it’s very important.

Giving control over your body, and your well-being, to another person is to be taken incredibly seriously, and you can’t make someone else responsible. If you decide to give your power to someone you haven’t taken the time to vet, it would be unfair not to take some of the responsibility when things go south. If you invite a snake into your bed, you have to own your responsibility when he bites.

The first step to vetting someone is to get to know them as a person. Just like every other relationship. The vanilla things matter. Let me repeat that in case it didn’t sink in… the vanilla things matter. Your morals, religion, hobbies, and personalities need to align the same way any other couple’s should.
That doesn’t mean they need to be the same. It’s okay if he loves hiking and you’d rather sit in with a book, but these things must align. There shouldn’t be contention every time you discuss what to do on Saturday, and you shouldn’t feel that you’re compromising yourself to make it work. You’ll want to avoid letting sex and kink be the main topic of conversation at this point.

As you’re getting to know this person you’ll probably start seeing little glimpses of dominance peeking through. You’ll notice the way he checks in often, asks you to call when you’ve arrived home safely, or tells you where you’ll be going for dinner rather than asking.

The next step in your vetting is going to be giving him opportunities to lead. Push small pieces of power over the line and watch to see what he does with them. Watch carefully, and be honest with yourself about how he responds. Does it feel right? Is he putting your well-being above his desires?

Tell him you’ve been feeling tired in the mornings before work and don’t know if you should try showering at night, what does he think? Does he asks questions about when you go to bed? Does he say “whatever you think,” or otherwise let the opportunity to decide for you pass? Does he send you to bed when you have an early day even though he’d rather stay on the phone? These little ‘tests’ are all insignificant in themselves, but they combine to give you a very clear picture of what sort of leader you have.

This is the point where discussion of your future/potential dynamic will start coming into the picture. Let him know how you feel about the decisions he’s made for you. “It was nice not to have to decide… thank you for ordering for me…It made me feel really cared for when you called because I didn’t text when I got home.” Then start asking questions. LOTS OF THEM.

Discuss kinks, sure, but don’t let that be the only thing. Ask him what he imagines the day-to-day looking like. How much free time does he have? Why did it end with his last submissive? Are there any things that are must-haves? Limits? This is when the discussion crosses past the vanilla and becomes about shaping a dynamic. You want to find out what is important to each other, what sort of control will he want? How will he exercise it.

Continue pushing pieces of power over the line and keep watching to see what happens. Don’t rush it. If this is the right Dominant for you, then you’ll know over time. Does he own when he’s made a mistake, or try to cover with excuses? How does he react when you’ve forgotten to do something he asked? Does he speak poorly about every woman he’s ever been with? If so this is a red flag you should be aware of. Sexual tensions are high in the beginning of a relationship. It’s exciting for both parties, but does every conversation come back to sex?

If you take to vetting this way, with open honest communication about the dynamic, there will be no question that you are looking to be his, and that he is looking to own you. Some traditionalists feel it’s the sub’s responsibility to first approach the Dominant seeking ownership, and you’ll probably want to discuss expectations about this before the time comes so no one is left wondering what they’ve done wrong.

Have fun. Enjoy the journey, and above all don’t rush the process. If it’s the right person you’ll be glad you took the time. If it’s the wrong person, you’ll be even more grateful.

Happy Thanksgiving friends ... I’m thankful for the many people here who have been kind, funny, and so supportive along this journey. 😘

3 months ago. Wed 08 Nov 2017 01:40:09 AM IST

If you’ve read my profile, you might have guessed I love Alice in Wonderland. I saw this today on Tumblr and it was so cheeky, I had to share.   Enjoy! 

 

3 months ago. Mon 06 Nov 2017 03:02:54 PM IST

3 months ago. Wed 01 Nov 2017 02:34:48 AM IST

3 months ago. Wed 25 Oct 2017 12:16:43 AM IDT

They say "that which doesn't kill you, makes you stronger" ... I don't agree.  Some things that didn't kill me, came so close that they continue to damage.  They didn't make me better.  Some things made me worse.  And can't that be ok too?  Can't some things just break you?  Why is it that the world wants you to believe that admitting defeat makes you weak?  I say, bleed. Bleed openly.  There can be pride in vulnerability. Honesty is maturity.  And really, it's the things that did "kill" me, that made me and continue to make me. 

 

 

 

4 months ago. Sun 22 Oct 2017 06:58:24 PM IDT

She had always felt too deeply, cared too much, given her heart to those unworthy. In a short while she was spent. Used up. Empty.

Then she found him, her wolf. He led her from the dark and taught her the truth of herself.

“What if I fall?” She said.
“Oh, Princess, but Ive taught you to fly…” He replied

And she let go, all the sorrow, all the pain, set free…

“Just breathe…” He said, “…I have far greater heights for you to soar in.”

4 months ago. Mon 09 Oct 2017 07:04:13 PM IDT

Thank you Alex, wherever you are. πŸ’•

So today I wrote a song for you

'cause a day can get so long
And I know its hard to make it through
When you say there's something wrong
So I'm trying to put it right
'cause I want to love you with my heart
All this trying has made me tight
And I don't know even where to start
Maybe that's a start
'cause you know its a simple game
That you play filling up your head with rain
And you know you are hiding from your pain
In the way, in the way you say your name
And I see you
Hiding your face in your hands
Flying so you won't land
You think no one understands
No one understands
So you hunch your shoulders and you shake your head
And your throat is aching but you swear
No one hurts you, nothing could be sad
Anyway you're not here enough to care
And you're so tired you don't sleep at night
As your heart is trying to mend
You keep it quiet but you think you might
Disappear before the end
And its strange that you cannot find
Any strength to even try
To find a voice to speak your mind
When you do, all you want to do is cry
Well maybe you should cry
And I see you hiding your face in your hands
Talking bout far-away lands
You think no one understands
Listen to my hands
And all of this life
Moves around you
For all that you claim
You're standing still
You are moving too
You are moving too
You are moving too
I will move with you

4 months ago. Tue 03 Oct 2017 03:53:47 AM IDT

When she transformed into a butterfly, the caterpillars spoke not of her beauty, but of her weirdness. They wanted her to change back into what she always had been. But she had wings.  ~D. Jackson