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6 years ago. October 12, 2017 at 9:32 PM

I want to be a success in life to be better than what I've been. I don't want a life of ruin I need the stability that's afforded hard work. I've worked harder in a shorter time than most people have done in a whole life time.

I'm not been egotistical with that statement as I've said previously I was an addict and an alcoholic I messed up bad and paid the price for my down falls. I worked on myself dealt with the demon that lived in me controlled me even I had to become so much stronger than I was mentally.

And once I gained the strength I beat the fuck out of that demon it broke me left me raw I at that point in my life was at the lowest I'll ever be. Many thoughts ripped my head to shreds things I didn't do things I should've done things I said and didn't say the what ifs I had to accept that I'd caused pain and hurt so many people good people one's who didn't deserve my shit.

I changed me inside out my thought process my attitude my general outlook towards others. I've been the good Dom but I've been the selfish one to luckily I'd not crossed the line of no return but I was close.

I've said before that I was sent to prison that it was for violence. I'm not hiding I'm open what you see is truth I'm the most real you'll ever see because I completely believe in full disclosure. Only a fake won't say only a fraud will hid facts only a scam artist will say pretty things me I'll tell anyone anything I've nothing to his a lot to be ashamed of but by airing my lowest moments in life I don't repeat them. Not everyone is the same that's acceptable as long as within the boundaries of the own relationship their comfortable. It doesn't effect me in any way so that's others choice's.

Me well I'm after something a relationship with multiple partners so if I hold back on the worst of myself then anyone who is interested can say I'd not given them the full facts. I'm not religious in the sense of blindly following a book a bunch of men wrote but I believe that their is a God just not the interpretation that's out there now. This may come over as a rambling but its how I view these things.

If my mind switches from one subject to another that's because it holds long term contexture. I have to speak my mind if I see something that's wrong then rest assured I'll say something about it. I've Learnt that I'm still learning about what it means to be civilized I'm definitely house broken and cultured now but I wasn't always.

I had ridged belief's now I'm flexible in my outlook more understanding that other people have rights to their opinion I may not agree or condone but it don't effect me so really I don't give a shit.

Anyway I've said enough so play safe people.

J


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