This is not fiction so if your going to take the piss that means you any remaining vermin bring it for I'm stronger now.
Why oh Why do we tell those lies.
No hears them for no ones around we're alone but yet we still tell them.
How many nights does this go on til someone notices our cries.
The fear that builds up changes constantly from low to high.
We begin to tell but panic robs us and words become shy.
Go to where your meant to be day by day people crowding all around.
Back under cover a place for dreams wanting nothing more than to die.
Not one to say a thing to no one to ask or scream help at.
Working hard all day meeting set out targets achieve achieve all by day.
By night you prey the following dear Lord who art in heaven im in hell.
The mind works it grows you think of the words you have to say.
Over and over you make this encouraged plea.
But alas when the time presents itself you shrivel and shrink.
Again the mind is in chaos fear has wrapped itself up tight.
You do everything to go unnoticed run, hide away still no peace to let you think.
You now begin to accept want nightmares bring the monsters in the dark.
Still unnoticed by those that you want to see for their blind.
Again and again your noticed by the ones you fear.
The damage doing your soul they do grinde.
Life becomes a gray wasteland to you there's colour a plenty but none do you see.
Each day you get clean hiding the evidence of last night's fear.
No longer do you cry or even fight you just let it be.
Starting to feel hate losing love for those that are dear.
It's now the monsters go some nights pass and nothing and you miss it, them.
You start to think now should I say because they've gone but that other fear whispers no.
The fear stays with you day and night the pain has gone but the fear stays.
You don't even realise until your grown the reason for why they left its you accepted it and that made go.
To those that understand you know of what I speak. To those that don't think on it. And to all know this I'm no longer a child.
This was personal.
