Just talk a random thought I'd like to say I'm OK not to worry but we are who we are shit mounts up the same.
Solitude is wonderful for the peace and quiet!
Loneliness is a curse because of the peace and quiet!
Both mean the same but both impact us differently.
Why I'm faced with chills I'll not know.
I'm surrounded by family, friends even good natured people.
I feel low, I feel defeated, I search, I hunt but I don't find.
There in an unreachable distance I see my own kind.
I wave, they wave, I shout, they shout but no sound travels in that wilderness.
I seek companionship, I seek trust, I seek like minded for my lust.
So far away I have no one to play the games that we'd enjoy.
I feel low, I feel defeated, why do I bother getting up anymore.
No one rings, no one texts, no one email's, no one comes to my door.
So why, so why, so why do I try to be so hopeful.
My needs, my wants, my desire where are you.
I hope and pray to powers far beyond my understanding to bring me what I dream.
My life is strange, my life is unusual, my life is what some would say crazy.
I'm not completely bad, I'm not mad, not even unwilling to change, I'm not lazy.
But my mind is like an onion its locked within eye watering layers.
I'll post, I'll text, I'll send an email, I'll even make flyers.
But still nothing tangible, no wants, no needs, no desire.
I feel low, I feel defeated I'm bested, I'm tested, so far from rested.
When will it be my time, when will my happiness come.
Sometimes even the strongest will's can feel this I hide this side the best with fake smiles unenthusiastic nods unnoticed laughs I blend and no one see's this.
No one see's because no one wants to.
Men as dominant as me we don't share our toy's and for a lot that goes for feelings to.
I had to evolve beyond myself my emotional side wasn't a myth but how I used to lock things inside well that was legend.
Insight helps me grow as a person, as a Dom.
I hope you understand why I've wrote this and not question why.
I'm safe, I'm secure I'll endure.
Some days just get you down.
Play safe.
J
