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Reflections in the dark mirror

Just my musings on 5 decades of the lifestyle
I am here when you are in need
I am here when your mind is freed
I am here if you want to walk
I am here if you want to talk
I cannot write more verse today
My mind like yours is far too frayed
All I can say to you is
I am here

Reginald Miles
1 month ago. June 6, 2024 at 3:11 PM

I have been asked many times how I got into this lifestyle! So here’s my story for what it’s worth !

In a different era to the freedoms of today I grew up in a rural community, eventually puberty hit and I found I had a new toy ! No batteries required and readily available!!

I was lucky enough that a girl a couple of years older than me took me in hand so to speak just before I hit my teens, we lived on neighbouring farms and I used to go over and help her groom the horses in the stables, we kinda flirted very naively, kissing clumsily etc etc, thinks took their natural course and we tried different things ! I had little idea in fact pretty clueless ! but she rode me, I sort of came and from then on I was hooked , we did “it” at ever opportunity with some experimentation up to my family moving away !

Fast forward a couple of years and I used to do the garden for an old lady (40ish shock horror) She started talking to me more and more at times the banter would get naughtier, she eventually asked if I could help her hang some curtains ! As I climbed the step ladder she passed me the curtains and then her hands were on my legs ensuring I didn’t fall, but as to be expected at my age I became aroused quite visibly !! The curtains duly hung I climbed down and turned around and she didn’t move! Instead we looked at each other our heads moved closer together and we kissed !

Bear in mind this was 1969 the nearest thing to sex was perusing the lingerie pages of the store catalogues filled with barricade bras, huge french knickers, corsets and sensual stockings, the kiss deepened her hand found my now aching bulge and she stroked it slowly I can remember my knees shaking, I (clumsily) found my hand lifting her skirt and finding her massively hairy pussy! Remember this was the late 60’s and shaven havens weren’t the norm !

Well she eventually seduced me, over the ensuing months this wonderful woman taught me to pleasure her in every way you can imagine. Then went on to teach me how to dominate her, including some rudimentary bondage and the healthy application of belts and hairbrushes to her voluptuous arse!

RIP Mrs Lee you fabulous woman I owe you more than you could ever have imagined!!
You taught me the power of respect ! That no matter how filthy the act it can still be an amazing sensual experience! And that the lady always comes/cums first !

I’ve been hooked on kink ever since !! Yes things have changed but at the end of the day it’s still the same dance !

2 months ago. May 21, 2024 at 4:33 AM

Took me a while to spot it until I zoomed in ! 

2 months ago. May 18, 2024 at 5:37 AM

I am Daddy’s precious little girl. Tonight I will get to be Daddy’s big girl and do the things big girls do. I’m excited and a little scared. But that’s only until Daddy is here. The Daddy will make things ok.

My dress was hand picked by Daddy, my bra and panties- were selected with care. There’s so much I got to learn and Daddy will teach me everything. I get all dressed and then have to wait for Daddy.

I am laying on my tummy with my feet in the air and colouring a picture. Daddy sits down on the floor beside me. He rubs my back and it feels so nice. “Finish your picture, Princess.” He smiles at me. ‘“Okay Daddy” and I turn back to my colouring.

Daddy’s warm hand slides under my dress. He softly runs his hand over my bottom. I can feel his touches though my panties. “Keep colouring Darling girl.” I tried hard to colour my picture nicely but Daddy’s fingers are rubbing my princess parts and making me feel all shivery.

His fingertips slip under my panties. He makes a happy sound because I’m all wet there. My wonderful Daddy continues to stroke me there, curling a finger into me just a little making the little slit feel achy.

“Daddy, that feels good when you touch me there.” His eyes are almost closed. “Daddy is it bed time?” “Yes kitten, and we have to get you out of these wet panties.”

Daddy gets up and leads me to his bedroom. “Take off your pretty clothes Princess.” I do just as Daddy says. Daddy undresses too. Daddy has me turn around in circles so he can see me.

I look at Daddy’s prince part. Daddy reaches for my hand and places my hand on his prince part. He has me pull back the skin so I can lick the tip like my favorite lollipop. He guides my hand up and down while I lick and suck him. Daddy makes happy sounds. “ oooh now stop Princess.” I look up at Daddy and he seems so happy. “Get on the bed and lay on your back”

I climb into the bed and lay back. Daddy climbs into bed with me. He gives me butterfly kisses on my neck and my little nipples. I have goosebumps all over. He slides his hand between my legs and rubs me again, “hmmmm almost ready” he leans over to kiss me again and again. “ you want to be my big girl now?”

“Oh yes Daddy! But will it hurt?” Daddy strokes my hair “it may a little but I will make the hurt feel better.” Daddy kisses me again and lays on top of me. He holds my head in his hands as I feel the hardness press against me. “Shhhh it’s ok, I’ve got you”.

Daddy covers my face in kisses as his hardness slowly pushes inside my princess place. I squirm a little. “Daddy .... I ... feeel all tingly. “Good sweet girl very good.” I feel his hardness push in a little and pull out a little. I hold on tight to Daddy as there is a sharp pain inside my princess part, “shhh it’s ok you are such a brave girl”. He pushes all the way in now and I feel so full.

Daddy whispers softly to me “good girl my good girl. You are mine forever now. “ My body starts to feel tingly all over as Daddy moves inside me. Daddy is clutching me to him tight as I shiver and tremble under him. In and out of my special place Daddy slides and my body feels all shaky.

“Don’t fight the good feelings princess just let them happen”. Daddy is moving faster now kissing me harder I make these moaning sounds and my body trembles all over and the really wonderful feeling rushes over me... Daddy must feel it too because he pushes hard and holds himself inside me as this warm feeling fills me.

I feel Daddys heart is racing as fast as mine but slowly starts to slow down. Daddy rolls onto his back and his prince part leaves. He pulls me close to him. “You did so very well my big girl. Let’s rest awhile holding each other tightly, then you may clean Daddy up.” I’m so happy cause now I’m Daddy’s big girl too.💙

2 months ago. May 11, 2024 at 8:22 AM

My philosophy is simple:
“What people say about me is none of my business.
I am who I am and do what I do.
I expect nothing and accept everything.
And that makes life easier.”

2 months ago. May 9, 2024 at 11:44 AM

To say it’s been a tough few weeks would be something of an understatement!

The good news my baby girl I’ve been with for three years has decided she wants a full on normal relationship outside of kink !

The bad news is it’s not with me !

It’s with someone else who was part of our poly / open relationship.

There was an option on the table for a watered down Ddlg relationship but it didn’t sit right with me.

So sadly we have negotiated an exit to our Ddlg relationship whilst (hopefully) maintaining our deep and abiding friendship!

Don’t get me wrong I wish her all the best for her future journey, she needs it, wants it and deserves it!

I will always love what we had it’s been pretty amazing to be honest!

But now it’s time for me to rest, recover, let the hurt heal and decide my future path !

2 months ago. April 28, 2024 at 4:44 PM

If we hold on to regret we stay in the past, what matters is what we do now ! 💙

6 months ago. January 11, 2024 at 4:23 AM

It’s 4:18am , been awake since 2:00am, brain won’t shut down ! 
So many things buzzing my bonce

-relationships changing 

-received divorce papers yesterday 

-wondering where the future lies

-what happens next 

-move forward or give up !!

Sighs all valid thoughts but no answers ! 

6 months ago. December 25, 2023 at 9:59 AM

If anyone has Prime there’s a a great film about body positivity! It’s called My body is not obscene, well worth a watch 💙

7 months ago. December 21, 2023 at 9:02 PM You Purĕ for the challenge. Don’t blame me if I put you off your Christmas festivities!

The original challenge can be found below 

7 months ago. December 21, 2023 at 6:25 PM

On this the Winter Solstice Day Eve, I wish you all
HEALTH, to enjoy the festive period and the coming year!

WEALTH, of knowledge to grow and develop on your journey!

HAPPINESS, of mind and soul to be true to yourself!

As the Sun returns let’s all just be grateful that we are here to enjoy it ! 💙