Online now
Online now

Mind of a Raeven

Inner thoughts, feelings and general stuff.
5 years ago. March 15, 2019 at 4:41 PM

It's so hard to wake up in the morning knowing that I won't have a good morning waiting for me. It's so hard to go to sleep knowing that I don't have a good night and sweet dreams waiting for me. I know that the pain and hurt will lessen over time but with the wound still fresh it hurts so much because I was left to clean up and explain why. Over the last couple of years I have been hurt and made to feel like I was good for only one thing and when I met him, he was helping me heal from that and then he leaves me and I feel like I am not worthy to have anyone. I try not to let it show that I have been hurt especially at where I work but it is so very hard. Right now just about everything reminds me of him and it hurts so much. I just want to crawl into a hole and never come out. He tore my heart into pieces and I don't know if it will ever be able to be put back together. The only people who knew about us are those who know us here on the Cage. What makes this worse is besides losing Daddy, I lost my actual father back in January and I am so very fragile at this moment. I want to thank all those who are supporting me during this time. It means the world to me. 

K y i v - Ever forward! Evermore...
5 years ago
StormRaeven​(sub female) - Quote the Raven evermore
5 years ago
Thecharmedmuse​(switch female){My Wildman} - Hugs you! It will get better. This is a bad day. I completely get that. Stay busy. If you have to take 5 and visit the bathroom to sob ... do it. Crying is cleansing. Make sure you stay hydrated. Come up with a personal daily routine for yourself that involves a lot of self care. Write it down. You deserve it. ❤️❤️❤️❤️ I love you!
5 years ago
StormRaeven​(sub female) - Love you too!!
5 years ago
Sensual City Girl{ForeverHIS} - Big HUGS!!!
5 years ago
SweetSirRendering​(sub female) - i know when the pain is new and suffocating it is hard to believe you will again feel the warmth of the sun on your face, breathing can come easily, but you know you will come to the other side of this place. contrary to what despair threatens, you will be strong and full of hope and light again. this is not the end; only a brief time in a tight chrysalis preparing you for your next transformation.

i am so very sorry for your hurt and for the loss of others and pieces of yourself you mourn. hold on. just keep holding on and force yourself to breathe
5 years ago
StormRaeven​(sub female) - Thank you
5 years ago
Satindragon{N/A} - Oh Sweet Raven, I would fix this if I could. You know I am here when you need me. It will take some time but you will heal. You are worthy of all the love and happiness that comes your way.*Dragon hugs💜💜*
5 years ago
StormRaeven​(sub female) - I know and I want to thank you and your Sir for being there for me during this time. 💜💔
5 years ago
Satindragon{N/A} - You are very welcome.
5 years ago
Bunnie - I agree... the good mornings and goodnights are the hardest. I’m sorry you’re going through this, and also... condolences for your father :( As cliché as it is, time does help... so does your community. Be gentle with yourself and feel whatever you need to feel. *hugs*
5 years ago
Sweet Ginger​(sub female){} - I'm sorry your going through this right now losing two important people in your life, so close together... ***hugs**** take some deep breaths and take it one day at a time... As some have already said, take care of yourself.. You are a worthy person.. Have some good crys but realized that when your ready and maybe when you least expect it someone will arrive who is deserving of you.. But right now focus on feeling good about yourself and self healing because I feel we attract what we are.. You want to be in a good place to better weed out toxic people and only allow those who will treat you well.. Take care and the best of luck to you! 💓
5 years ago
StormRaeven​(sub female) - Thank you, and I am taking things one day at a time.
5 years ago

You must be registered and signed in to comment


Register Sign in