Day to day life...
It’s been hard for me to get back into the swing of doing my day to day tasks that my Daddy requires. Some of it has to do with just getting out of a habit...some of it has to do with being so wrapped up in my head lately about how I look. Questioning myself on whether or not I look ok...do I look old...does he still find me attractive after seeing me at my worst??
Ever since I was in the hospital...I have been super needy. Wanting to just be cuddled by him. Wanting lots of attention...and very sensitive. I’m sure I’m PMSing along with a ton of drugs still running through my system.
I have to find a way to get out of my head and get back to the girl he fell in love with. The girl that he wants to dominate and own. The girl that amazes him daily.
I just need to find my groove and get back to believing I look good. It was just a huge blow to my ego and it affected a lot!
I will be better...I am better!!!
Until tomorrow...
