Just trying to be happy...
The hardest thing in my life lately is trying to find happiness when I’m not with him. There are so many factors that figure into this...and I have let so many things interfere with that.
I’m genuinely the type of person that is easy going and very easy to get along with. This has often brought me to situations where I get used or taken advantage of. I care about people and honestly wish the best for people...even people that I don’t care for. I don’t like conflict of any sort...and avoid it at all cost.
But I’m tired of being unhappy or sad when he is not around....I’m done with it. I’m done. I wont allow outside influences to change my joy. It’s important that I care about myself and ensure that I don’t allow things to change my mood when I can’t control it. All I can control is myself and the situation that I am in.
I want to be as happy as I am with him every day...whether he is with me or not. Happiness should not be defined by anyone except for me.
Until tomorrow....
