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Just my random thoughts as I try to learn and grow
4 years ago. July 2, 2019 at 4:07 PM

Ive realised in my sleepless slumber that i have not been being true to myself. That in my search for someone i have been accepting people due to my own loneliness. Due to my desire to be wanted and needed.

I have lived a sheltered life. Due to that i find myself learning lessons that most might learn in their early 20's. I walk away from things feeling lost, hurt and for what? I give myself mentally, emotionally and occasionally physically too soon. Some who have met me might  disagree with that. Say im gaurded. The truth is i fall for the idea of someone and that can be dangerous. Because it is not them i feel for but for hope. 


So i am going back to being true to myself. No more meeting people because it's expected. If they can not communicate to me on a standard level and hold a conversation then NO.


If they push early on to try play or control me. Then NO.


However if they take the time to get to know me, show interest, take time and show respect, give me desire, give me dare i say romance...... i can get sex or play no problem. But that's not what im after. And im quite happy to wait......


See maybe the past few little things that I've experienced have been because i lost sight of myself. I fell for hope rather than reality. I dropped my standards for good looks and attention. From now on Im waiting for that pull. Ive felt it before and i know i will again, it just might take some time.

Daddy'sGoodGirl​(sub female) - I can honestly say, I do that more than I would like to admit. I think we live the same life.
4 years ago

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