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My journey is a road I travel most of the time with friends by my side. Some days I walk alone, others I hold someone's hand. This is my journey on cage. If you really want to know about me go back 2 years ago to my first blog. Enjoy
4 years ago. September 17, 2019 at 4:05 AM

The darkness nips at her toes
Always there reminding her how easy it is to be pulled back in
Watching and waiting for the perfect time to strike
She tries to back away but the wall behind her is to tall
She tries to move to the side but it's there too
Nothingness
Emptiness
Darkness
She holds his hand afraid to let go
She tries to hold tight but he is slipping away
Fingers barely touching
Her safety fading away
Her hand falls
She takes a breath
Takes a step to the darkness
Slow painful steps
And then she falls
Surrounded by the darkness
Fear creeps in because only bad things wait in the dark
Will anyone find her
Their words ring in her head
Your not a good mom....
You are neglectful...
You dont take the time...
You cant do this right...
You dont try hard enough...
Your never going to be good enough...
You dont matter...
The last one plays over and over
She opens her eyes and thinks I AM
I am an amazing mom
I am overly caring
I give all my time to others
I will do my best and may not always do it right but what is right
I try so hard
I AM GOOD ENOUGH AND I MATTER
Repeat that I MATTER
She stops falling
Left floating alone in the dark
I MATTER
A small flicker of light appears
I MATTER
the light gorws stronger
Each time she repeats the phrase the light grows brighter
Out of the light a hand reaches
Pulls her close
She sees herself
Knowing the only person who can save her is herself.
Facing our own truths can be the hardest challenge ever.

MiaTuk​(sub female){NotLookin} - YES... YOU MATTER... you ROCK...
Embrace the overly caring, sensitive being that you are! :D
4 years ago

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