Usually I love this time of year. I love all the pwetty lights and the colors. But this year for some reason I'm having trouble getting into the season. I'm putting on my happy face for my kids. Pretending all is okay.. when inside I just want to throw a tantrum and give up. And yes I mean a literal tantrum. Like throw yourself on the ground and kick and scream until I feel better.
I obviously can't/won't do that. But I want to so bad. It was supposed to be our first Christmas in our own home and that got ruined by the flood that happened the Sunday after thanksgiving. So my girls and I are still staying with my dad at his and my mom's house. It's quiet the adjustment and it's hard.
We just did my mom's Christmas for my kids on Saturday before she headed back up to new York. I got a new stand mixer that I've wanted for years but was always told I had to have my own house first.
I'm just stuck in a funk I can't seem to get out of. I'll be okay. I always am.
Remember always be kind
PandaBear
