Renegade and rogue. I have been called both over the last couple months. To be honest, the both mean roughly the same thing. In a negative connotation, renegade means a rejection of conventional behaviors or cultural norms. A Rogue is defined as a dishonest person. However, there is a playful meaning to rogue: a mischievous person. I’m about 99% sure the meaning towards me was negative. But what makes you rogue or renegade?
So to me, I don’t really see myself that way. First, when I think mischievous, I think brat. Although there is nothing wrong with being a brat, I am not one. Now I will say, I am inquisitive, witty and a thinker. I am never intentionally being a brat or consuming, I just have a lot I want to know.
Now, the other side. I don’t feel like I am dishonest, I think I am very upfront with people. I don’t think people hear me. BDSM has its cultural norms, but it leaves so much room for variation and adaptation. My experience is variance and adaptation only occurs after submission. To me, I cannot submit until I feel psychologically safe and that can take a long time. I will not submit to a Dominant that is not mine, do not demand of me. I will not give out my number, let down my wall or anything else I hold sacred to me. I know my ability (time) to submit. I value my due diligence. And this I know, makes me a renegade, a rogue submissive to some.
I am not saying I have never done wrong. I have. What I am saying is, protecting my vulnerabilities does not make me rogue or renegade, it makes me smart. It keeps me intact from becoming jaded. It keeps me intact for my Dom.
What do you think?
What's rogue? What's renegade?
