Edging. It's wonderful, it's hard. It's Heaven, it's Hell. You can't get enough and yet sometimes just once is more than enough to have you going nuts!
So what is the reasoning behind it? Why do we do it? How can bringing yourself to the edge of pleasure over and over, then denying that release bring you any pleasure?
I will tell you how it is for me. At first, it was hard, and I do mean hard to get into masturbating without the pleasure of letting myself cum. At first, I felt confused about it, but the more I've done it the more I understand it. It keeps me wet and ready, it keeps me alert and wanting more. I'm always craving my Master and I listen more attentively. It helps drive me to get my work done faster and to always do my very best. It drives me to be me. I feel more open to who I am, and I've had to stop myself a few times from walking up to my mom and saying something like...
"Mom, I am owned by Master. I am his slave and part of it is I am his sex slave."
I will probably tell her this one day, but the time just isn't right.
Edging daily has given me confidence. It's made me stronger and it's allowed me to know my body. I've learned what gives me pleasure and what makes me wet. I don't feel ashamed of who I am anymore. I welcome it!
I'll admit at first I cried a few times, I thought it wasn't fair that Master could cum whenever he wanted but I had to wait. I wasn't allowed to ask if I could be given an orgasm, that's not a very submissive way to act.
( A few men before Master would have me beg and whine for an orgasm, like a dog waiting for a treat, but that just didn't quite feel right. )
But I grew to understand it more and my eyes have slowly opened more to why Master has done this with me. He wanted me to see it was ok to be myself. He gave me what I have craved so hard all my life. I have wanted a master to control me. I have wanted a man to give and take orgasms from me as he saw fit.
Slave E, I belong to Master
