Cant do this

being a dominant man as myself I realize that even though recently my entire life has been turned upside down my dom tendency’s still come out I try to laugh and flirt but where it used to be from the heart it now comes from this dark hollow spot a small echo from times past when I lived a life of self gratification and took from others what I now try to give and now truthfully I have lost more than many people my age have but when I was outright rejected it made me question everything I thought I knew am I in good enough shape most say so I keep clean work pay all my own bills and usually spend most of my free time doing work for various friends company’s while my dreams flounder I’m hurt yes and was alone and lost but someone on here and one other person reached out and stopped me from being very stupid I thank u both I know just as I wake up every day she forgets about me I will try memorize her like the moment we met but I’m trying to move on I’m going to be a better man lover and dom to whoever is next today and I will be even better tommorow because I still love I still hurt but I have been stronger than this and weaker we will see if friendships or loves could be fixed this blog is my only outlet the girl who broke my heart showed me this site this ability to be free and I know I need to let her go I will always be there for her but I dont know if she moved on or I’m crazy and if I am crazy I’m no idiot and enough coincidences mean something happened but again how who what now I still miss her to death but what and how and when to do what...???