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I pushed my lover and sub to someone else blamed them when it was me now I just don’t have the heart to continue with anyone else at least for a long time I wish this would have worked out longer or better but thanks for the warm welcome I miss u baby girl I’m so sorry
5 years ago. October 17, 2018 at 9:46 AM

22so a lot of u have read my posts lately and I’ve been hurt but honestly I forgot about what was important and why i was so desperate and now I feel like that was what needed to happen I was so worried about all other people problems that I completely stoped loving myself now after today I am still lonely as shit and I prob won’t get over the anxiety or the fact that I still love her but I let my goals go I changed myself and I suffered for it I’m back to me and this is what happened to get me there this morning was ok slow start to another day i just had a bad text convo with the only person who has seen my daughter that will speak to me and he had told me before that my child is not being taken care of correctly now today of all days I decide to open an envelope I had for two or three days inside it was a summons to court over three hundred dollars and it had my wife’s name instead of her sisters which I’ve gotten allot of these it’s on there but not this one just my passed wife’s and after being so hopeless and alone wondering what the fuck is wrong with me and sad because on the 22 is my fiancé’s death anniversary now exactly one year after that on nov 1 my father died and after all that the only situation that would bring me home was this situation and the date on the court summons dec 12 two days.before my daughters birthday so I have been hopeless and selfish and sad and haven’t thought of my little girl in along time because of my ex and now I ask for a sign and I get summoned to court in the only way I would be forced home from my dead ex and if she was alive she would petty bitch over 306 dollars after I was just told our child was not being treated right two days before her birthday I got these ridiculous chills and the whole room like froze but I was happy and I found some peace and this is the topper remember I mentioned my dad as well yeah I remember that today this all happened is also my father that passed away birthday blew my mind what do u think fucking nuts to me

SevenSeven - I hope it all works out for you. That there is a silver lining in all of this that cause you look back and understand it. Sending good vibes your way.
5 years ago

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