Its amazing at times, you can think you have built your walls high enough or have nothing left to hurt your hearts is a decapitated squish mess on the floor... someone will still come around and find a way to still hurt it, its human nature.... im wondering if im statring to become a bit of a sadistic fucker recently but to myself, yes masocistic tendancies still fucking hurt, especially emotionally. I thought i had already turned what was left of my heart to stone... I was wrong and now i can feel the ice creeping up.... As much as crying or i dont really know what other people do ??? might help... it does for 5 min. I then get up off my arse and get on with life. Like when you go boxing you get back up... okay so screaming might make me feel better ... if only i could go and use a punching bag in a gym for an hour.. It does however get tiring getting back up.
1 year ago. Oct 20, 2018, 8:30 PM