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Firecracker Diaries - A combination of stories, random thoughts and an appreciation log of life with Daddy

I'm a owned and collared. The journey I have been on with Daddy is amazing...and only gets better! This is my daily entries of what is going on in my head and stories of all the things I’m learning with Daddy!
5 years ago. December 10, 2018 at 5:35 AM

1 more day and then he will be in the air on his way back to me!!! 

 


The time has been dragging by in the anticipation! I have been babysitting the last couple of days and was hoping that would help to consume the time...but not so much. I’m finding that cuddling with a baby for the last couple of days has just made me miss him more.

 


I’m feeling like I’m floating through the last couple of days...just waiting for the time to pass. Just waiting for him to call...just waiting for a video call to see his face. Then once he does it’s like I’m frozen in that space...wanting to say everything but drawing a blank at the same time. It’s like the anticipation is making me lose my mind...literally!!!

 


The next 30 or so hours is making my heart race and skip beats at the same time!! It’s crazy that all I need is to be wrapped in his arms...to have his lips on mine....I have been waiting so long and now I’m wanting him so badly it hurts!! Not that it hasn’t been that way this entire time...but as it gets closer I’m getting lost in the thought of it.

 


I keep thinking that each time it will get a little easier...and it’s not...it actually gets harder because my need for him grows stronger over time. My submission to him grows deeper....I have to learn how to control my mind to be stronger through each time. I’m learning...it just feels like I should have found something to help this already....but I have not as of yet. I’m celebrating the fact that I’m not in tears like I was at this time last time...so there is progress!!!

 


I’m gonna need strength to get through the next 30 hours and still concentrate on what’s going on around me!! Lol

 


Until tomorrow...


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