|Bella D(sub female)||
2 months ago • 03/05/2021 3:45 pm
Bella D(sub female) • 03/05/2021 3:45 pm
I actually PREFER to play with trauma. It takes a kind and caring dom that understands how my mind is wired and that I can have full trust in that he doesn’t want to hurt me in that way. The time that I’ve been able to play with past hurt, it was so healing. He took a life long issue and made it completely go away because somehow it rewired my brain and fixed the memory behind it. I now look back on the event and can only see the overlay of the replacement fun rather than what used to hurt so much. I still know the truth, of course. But that doesn’t serve my mental health, so I choose to believe the lie instead. Even with much smaller things, playing with things that scare me or stress me out allows me to face the things in reality that are difficult with a lot more confidence.