Save a D/s relationship, chronic pain and depression
1 year ago • Feb 1, 2021
SuperEight(sub female) • Feb 1, 2021
I've been having a really rough time for the past 6 months or so and it's affecting my dynamic. Without going into detail, I've had chronic pain and muscle spasms for the better part of a year and it's taken a toll. I'm exhausted all the time and what little energy I have has been going toward my job as I work 12 hour shifts.
This has left me with almost no energy for my personal life or for my dynamic. My Dom has been more than supportive but I know I've been irritable and argumentative in my weak moments. We can't play like we used to and quite frankly, I'm terrified of the pain I may experience when we do (not pain inflicted, just what I'm regularly experiencing). He knows all this and has pumped the brakes so to speak on our dynamic. We're still very much in a relationship but it doesn't reflect the D/s style that we both want. I'm frustrated and sad, feeling like I'm not a good sub to such an amazing Dom.
Does anyone have experience with this kind of problem? How'd you solve it?