Am I crazy?
1 week ago • 04/30/2021 2:16 am
Dressing(dom male) • 04/30/2021 2:16 am
First of all, let it be known that this has made me quite upset, and even though I'm trying to remain objective, it may be influenced by emotions.
So, I was approached by a sub yesterday, and we start getting to know each other and all is well. I decided that the first day would be spent getting to know each other. We both seemed to enjoy talking and I enjoyed trying to learn what kind of person and sub she was. Today, I had prepared a little lesson, both to teach and gauge how the sub was thinking. I had been busy all morning until past noon, at which point I write her to tell her to be ready in 30 minutes time for her lesson. She replies that she's currently gardening/landscaping and thus couldn't have her lesson right now. I of course let her continue what she was doing, and half-expected that I would hear from her when she was done. 3 hours later, I tried asking her if she was done with her gardening, and she replies that she's now busy at her aunt and uncles house. I wait again, and later she asks me to write out my lesson for her to review later when she got time, but I reply that "I'd rather that you were present for my lesson". She then informs me she's facetiming her nan, and says it could take an hour or so, and I say I'll write her a little prep she can read before my lesson. Two hours later, now my 11:30 pm, she writes me back and we start the lesson.
After the lesson is done, which proceeded without any issues, I tell her that she should try to make time for me, or at the very least inform me when she's busy.
I say this, because I have practically been waiting all day with her lesson, and I had to ask her if she was done with her stuff because I didn't hear from her. Especially since the time she was ready was very late and essentially around the time I go to bed, so I'm already really frustrated that I couldn't have that damn lesson.
Things then took a turn for the worse, the much worse, as she began telling me how she already did tell me of what she was doing, that she didn't like letting me know 24/7 what she was doing and telling me she said things, that she didn't say (scrolling up and a screenshot showed it). I try letting her know that I had to enquire what she was doing, instead of her letting me know she was going to be busy, and that I didn't want her to be telling me what she was doing 24/7, just that I had been waiting so it would've been nice to know.
I try very, very hard to remain objective, telling her to calm down and listen to what I'm saying. I try to be objective and tell her my perspective and even give a suggestion to what she could've done instead. She gets more and more aggressive and eventually it culminates with "You're majorly irritating me. We're just not compatible. Take care".
Now I am left upset and sad that I, somehow, weren't able to get my meaning across. And worse is that I find myself blocked by her. An extremely childish act, if I say so myself, especially since I never insulted her, got angry at her or demeaned her. I listened to what she said, and tried to explain myself as calmly as I could.
Now I don't want to salvage the relationship, as it was only two days old(!), but I am honestly curious about what others think.
Was I unreasonable? Did I demand too much? ... Am I crazy?