I am Sarah. I'm a 28 year old, white, bbw who enjoys learning. I have gone through many iterations to find out who I am and I am very pleased with who I turned out to be. I am a just woman. Seeing vulnerable people being exploited is my pet peeve. I enjoy watching movies, reading, swimming, and exploring. I am currently a stay at home mom to a wild 2 year old but I have dreams of more. I go back to college next semester and will be working on my degree in Psychiatry. I either want to work as a researcher or in a private practice. My goals in life are: provide the tools my daughter needs to be to do well, have a strong sense of family between a partner, my daughter, and myself, have a well rounded life that is balanced between working hard and having fun.
Before I'd seen my first porno I drew a picture. This picture caused my school to call a psychologist and my parents in for a meeting. I had drawn a naked man standing strapped to a metal cross with electrodes on his genitals screaming in pain. When asked to describe it, I did. They asked what the person I imagined on the rack would feel about being there. I looked at them in disgust and replied "You don't do this to people who don't want it."
After that highly embarrassing ordeal it was still a decade before I could see if the reality was as good as my fantasy. Oh and was it ever. I am an equal balance of good and evil. I have deep compassion for people, especially underdogs, and I want justice for those who cannot seek it. But. Inflicting physical and emotional pain into people who want it brings me a joy I can't begin to describe. Acting out in my most depraved ideas without guilt...it continues to be a dream come true.
I am a bit of a loner so my activity in the local community has been minimal. I talk to the individuals that make up my community but events are usually a no-go. I currently have one sissy who is living in Sweden. When he comes to the east coast we get together and he gets my undivided attention for an evening. He always leaves sore and sated.
I would call myself underexperienced compared to a lot of D's. [If I ask to play a game on kik, type Alamo, just making sure people actually read my profile] I've had three subs, each for about a year, and one mentor for the entire duration. Everyone has helped me learn so much in the 4 years I've been active.
I don't permanently mutilate unless it is purely cosmetic(brand, carved scar), I don't break laws, I have VERY limited skills with rope work.
I am feeling hopeful about finding my slave here. Either way, the dream lives on.