Im a naturally submissive male and I have been Feminizing and Sissifying myself. I have never been a real man and I have struggled finding where I fit. I have always been a Submissive Sissy and I know my true place is at the feet of a Dominant Male Master. I am at the beginning of this journey and need help understanding the Master / Sub world and I need help feminizing myself at the right pace. I dream of the day I am at peace with who I am as a submissive and can just enjoy serving my Master in my true submissive nature.
Pretty inexperienced and mostly a sexual epxerience so far. I am turned on by the mental side of the Master / Sub rather than the gear and physcial restraints at this point probably because I don't understand their connection. I imagine some day I will.
I believe there is a natural order of power, and I respect the Dominant Alpha Male power. It is a power I do not posess. I do believe it's an important power and sits at the top of the food chain and as a sub I live in service to this power. I also know that I have a different kind of very useful power as a submissive.
I have kinks like being bullied and degraded, called names like faggot or slut. I like it when a man treats me like a slut and I can let my inner whore out. It feels so good to act like a depraved slut for him. I do not know why I am turned on so much by all of this but I am. I'm also a very deep passionate person and know that I will not last in a Dom/Sub relationship that is not based on love and trust. If I am only being abused I will not last. If I trust my Dom and they enjoy making me feel like a slut and its a gift from me to them and perhaps them to me I will more likely be able to sustain this.