Thank you for the opportunity to introduce myself.
Before I do so I would like to say that I have been in training in an online dynamic to a wonderful Mistress here on the cage, Mistress MikaAngelOh. Having learnt so much from Mistress over the last year, Mistress MikaAngelOh has kindly released me and given me permission to look for an opportunity to develop my training in person, and would love to meet somone here to learn to serve and push my submission and learning to the next stage.
Mistress MikAngelOh has been exceptionally kind in offering to act as my mentor and guide in supporting me in my search for a dynamic that can be in person, and while I am open to serving a Mistress or a Master, i know i will follow the guidance of Mistress MikaAngelOh as my training continues.
I am very lucky to have her in my life.
Now that I have clarified that, here goes..
My name is S, I am tall, fair, and i try to stay fit . Since my very earliest childhood memories of games of cowboys and indians, I have been aware that I had an overwhelming desire for things to go a little further. To be captured by the girls and made to do what they wanted, or to be tied just a litle bit tighter by my captors. As a child I couldn't make sense of these desires but I knew they were there and they made my heart beat fast, even then in my earliest memories.
Through my teenage years my sexual adventures often gravitated towards more mature women who took charge and took control, whether I fully realised it or not I was already enthralled by the leadership of strong, powerful, dominant women. During my twenties and early thirties, and over the years since, I have occasionally but infrequently, sought out and visited a selection of dommes. However these visits never turned out the way I hoped as I wasn’t clear about what it was I was actually looking for.
My journey to clarity came quite by chance when without any warning, I unexpectedly embarked on a Ds affair with an inexperienced, but very intuitive, intelligent and beautiful amateur Dominatrix.
Over 18 months, living in different countries, but seeing each other whenever we could, my M discovered and explored her dominant side while she helped me to begin to learn more about my submissive me. My M decided the rules and set the boundaries. As my submission grew and the trust became deeper, the demand for obedience became intoxicating. Sadly this Ds relationship did not last as it quicky developed into something very powerful which we realised we could not control and as we both have separate vanilla lives, my M decided to step away. I truly had no concept of just how powerful it had become until I lost her.
I am looking for a serious, authentic and intoxicating lady to lead me on my journey of education and submission. To guide me into the very darkest corners of my submission and to offer it, in complete obedience and trust to my Mistress. This is my first exploration into the online world in search of leadership on this journey and it brings with it a heady mixture of apprehension and excitement.
For me the mental is just as important as the physical, the profound nature of power exchange as well as the theatre and exhilaration of exposing your very being in honesty, and trust.
While travel and meetings could be an option in the future I would love to explore the world of online training and development with an understanding and serious domme who could begin to shape me slowly and authentically in her vision and expectations. I am in a longstanding vanilla relationship. While we have skirted around the edges of a Ds dynamic it is clear she has no real interest, or understanding of this world or its power and I am hoping to embark on developing my submissive self alongside this vanilla world. For now i would adore the oportuntity to begin online and go from there..... As for the future, who knows...?