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Thoughts and feelings of the moment or revelations I have had and want to share with others that I hope may be useful to perhaps maybe at least one other person in making their day, or at least making them smile or connect a missing dot somewhere
2 days ago. Oct 14, 2021, 12:06 AM

Another catchup post (seems to be the theme this year)

Day 11: Sour by Travis

Day 12: Stuck by Caleb

Day 13: roof by Caleb


5 days ago. Oct 10, 2021, 7:08 PM

So I got behind on posting (my bad, life happens) so here is all the days, prompts and who did them enjoy!

Day 6: Spirit, by Travis

Day 7: Fan, by Seth

Day 8: Watch, Travis

Day 9: Pressure, by Travis

Day 10: Pick by Travis


1 week ago. Oct 6, 2021, 3:15 AM

Inktober Day 5: Raven


1 week ago. Oct 5, 2021, 6:32 PM

Inktober Day 4: knot


1 week ago. Oct 5, 2021, 6:29 PM

Inktober Day 3: Vessel


1 week ago. Oct 2, 2021, 8:20 PM

Inktober Day 2: Suit


1 week ago. Oct 2, 2021, 8:16 PM

Inktober Day 1: Crystal



1 week ago. Oct 2, 2021, 8:10 PM

Hey everyone, it's that time of year again! Inktober is back and so I will be attempting to post the daily pic as I can for those interested so hope you enjoy!

3 months ago. Jul 3, 2021, 7:46 PM

So last night I went to a puppy mosh for the first time since Covid hit and shut everything down and we got banned from Denver due to numbers being high and doc not wanting us to get sick and die. The mosh was a ton of fun, we got to go as a puppy pack finally. This included me (Alpha), one of our gamma pups (switches), and one of our omega pups (sub/slave). We also happened to pick up a really close pup friend who we have not seen in a very long time and spend a good amount of time with him as well which we enjoyed very much.

*A side not about Puppy Moshes*

 So a mosh is very much like a play scene, however it is usually held at a bar (usually a gay bar), it is a chaotic, uncontrolled insanity one where all puppies jump in and play whenever they feel like it and theres not a ton of rules. The area is covered in foam mats like you b toddlers for when they play or so when they fall it wont hurt them. The area is then littered with puppy toys for anyone to come play with and have fun. There are usually mosh monitors who could be the Alphas or community Handlers who help out. They make sure pups don’t wear their shoes on the mat, have poky jewelry that might harm someone and make sure that pups who are shy and hiding sort of end up getting added into the mix really easily.

So last night I ended up playing mosh monitor more than anything because the area they set up for us was outside, which was nice as inside the bar it is noisy, hot and often crowded. Outside was nice as it was much cooler, bigger space and more room to socialize and play. Unfortunately because the area was bigger, they didn’t have the fencing to put up around the mats so me and my omega spent the majority of our time running around grabbing toys that rolled away out of the ring and putting them back. It was quite the job but it was fun. We ran into a lot of people we have not seen in a long time, about a year to be precise, and we met new puppies and handlers and puppy babysitters, puppy sitters? So it was nice to see everyone. Chasing toys was a lot of work but it was also a lot of fun. A few times I got snuck up on from behind and cuddled because I am so smol that I can be substituted as a cuddly puppy plushie lol. They love picking me up and hugging me, holding me, petting me and in general treating me like a child treats a favorite plush animal. It was pretty funny and we had an absolute blast getting to play with everyone and talk to them all after being isolated for so long.

It is surprising how much you do not realize you are isolated, until you actually get out and start hanging out with people again and realize how much you have been cooped up and how good it feels to run wild and howl at the moon with your fellow puppies. We are excited as we know more play dates are going to be scheduled in the future and with our Beta being relocated it will add one more to our group. We will only be missing our other omega, pack baby and Handler/Trainer. However that will take time and money of course to do but we have learned being persistent is key to getting what you want out of life.

If you ever get the chance I highly recommend going to a pup mosh and watching the silly antics. Time flies by and before you know it, you have made 3 or 6 new friends, got contact info, and had such a blast that you are in a happy rush of excitement. There are no rules other than no shoes on the mats, nothing that is spiky or poky, and no leashes as you can get easily tangled up in them during play. Otherwise it is controlled chaotic fun times that can be totally freeing and de-stressing which we all need in our lives from time to time.



3 months ago. Jun 18, 2021, 9:42 AM

You never know how much freedom you don’t have, until you suddenly have it, then looking back you can see how much you were restricted and how it affected you. They say hindsight is 50/50, however I believe it is more than that. I think that when you look back upon the past you see more clearly on events than you would see them if they were current because you had time to reflect. The more time that goes into digging into them, analyzing the situation and peeling apart the layers like an onion, while it may be painful and uncomfortable, can also be eye opening and life changing.

Recently had a major life change with moving into my own apartment so that I at long last have my own independent freedom. This has been a long time coming since being discharged from the military. It just so happens at the same time one of my pups on the East Coast got a great opportunity to come live out here too so now almost all of my pack is in Colorado. I am only missing 3 now. One is scheduled to come soon, the other two we are working on a plan to move when it is possible. But living in my own apartment means I can wake up in the middle of the night and get food without waking anyone up or making dogs bark. I can wake up at 5 am to go for a run and not have to explain my reasoning for it. I no longer have to explain anything I am doing about where I am going, what I am doing or why.

We are finally free to be who we are and not have to worry about what others think of us. Our system is able to be free and safe for the first time and not worry about who might be around to judge us or get upset. We don’t have to fake who we are anymore and can be who we really are with the support of those who know about us and care. Having the pup pack and subs is good because they are supportive and a second family to turn to and there when the help is needed or wanted. They are chosen family and that is worth more than anything else in the world because you know you can count on the ones you choose to be family, versus the ones you are born into that might not be so understanding or that have a certain mindset or standards they expect you to follow and when you don’t, they become disappointed in you. Our community grows strong through the bonds and connections we choose to make ourselves So always remember that when you are upset because the family you were born with is upsetting you, you have a kink family with you that is chosen that loves you and supports you for who you are truly always.