SAXMANIAC MUSINGS

My Dom and I are new to BDSM. I was drawn to it because of "50 Shades of Grey." (Yes, I know)

We have been in a long-term relationship, off and on, for several decades now. We have grown children. But for some reason I never truly felt like I knew where I stood with him. I didn't feel safe or secure in our relationship. It's probably why we drifted apart so many times. But when I looked into BDSM and learned what it REALLY was, I knew I wanted to explore it. There was certainly passion there, but I believe both of us were trying to be what we THOUGHT the other wanted us to be instead of exploring our true natures. I am naturally quiet and reserved, he is more outgoing and outspoken. We were a Dom/sub couple before we knew what that meant. 

We had to learn how to truly trust each other, and I began to push my sexual boundaries with his guidance. We are so much closer now and I can't imagine that there is anything I wouldn't let him do to me. I know that my Sir loves and adores me and I feel like I know where I  stand with him. Like I know, for lack of a better phrase, "my place." Who knew that exploring the kinky side of me would be just what we needed to be closer? 

I look forward to more discoveries about myself with the help of this amazing, and patient, man.