Submitting myself to my Dom is both exhilarating and in some ways terrifying. I'm not afraid that he will harm me, but I am sometimes afraid of the emotions that come pouring out. Sometimes after we've finished my emotions are raw and at the surface, I'm feeling everything at once - the pain, the passion, the eroticism, relief and exhilaration. Past lovers weren't able to deal with the emotions even without the kink. Once I asked for the kink they really freaked out.
My Dom is strong enough and secure enough to endure it all and I am free to release everything that I am feeling. Once I come down I know he will still be there, waiting for me, helping me recover. But I often wonder where these emotions will take me. I've been reserved and hidden my true emotions for so long, confronting them can be daunting.
But confronting them, knowing that I will wind up in his arms in the end makes it well worth the journey.
3 years ago. October 3, 2020 at 2:30 AM
