As this is my first post, of my first blog, I've decided to start at the beginning, with a past that almost none know.
Like most tigers, i started as a cub, not much bigger then a house cat, and as such i was treated. While my family "hunted" to keep food on the table, i fell victim to a predator. She called me her little kitten, and I'm still working to desensitize myself from the word kitten after everything that happened.
As i grew older, i realized more and more that compared to everyone else i was broken, quite literally into pieces (personalities). Whether or not i was always this way or this was a result of her is a question that goes farther back then my memory does, but that's really not that important to me or this post. While growing up i struggled to find strength, trapped feeling like a small kitten, feeling broken, and worst of all... feeling like i was no longer desirable, because somewhere along the way, the mistress that i never should have had just lost interest, and as sick as it sounds... at least i was wanted. A few suicide attempts along the way really shows just how weak i really was.
Now, at this point, some people may be wondering why as a dom, I'm here making my first post about weakness. Well, recently I've been coming across a lot of people ashamed because they've recently been through something that has made them weak in that moment. This "kitten" grew into a powerful tiger, this broken person accepted the multiple pieces as all parts of himself to take pride in, this suicidal person planted his feet on rock bottom and refused to give up. "Theres no shame in being weak girl, the shame is in staying weak" a quote from an anime called black clover. If your someone going through this, remember, anyone, even the mighty tiger can be weak, whats important is where you go from there, dont be ashamed that youve struggled, it creates character, take your time, build your strength, and stand proud knowing youve made it through another hurdle, i know you can do it, its time you believed it too :)