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Gallows' End Tavern

The year is 2006, & I’m at home at the Gallows’ End. A journal of light hearted goofball.
4 days ago. May 9, 2021, 6:50 AM

In an attempt to take some time for myself to distance myself & think hmm wtf am I doing, it feels like something is missing. My friend sends me a link & I’m like oh great another funny video I can use that. No it was something that hit way to close to home. While nothing kink related, I’ll leave this here & just say some of us never truly come back, we may be physically here, but relationships & relaxing often come at a cost. 

1 week ago. May 4, 2021, 11:10 AM

In a few weeks my contract ends, I’ve got interviews lined up. I jumped through some more hoops to see if I could be able to get back to my old line of work. Good news there, I’m waiting on some medical test and a mental health evaluation. A few of you know it’s been six weeks in change since my “friend” just up and stopped talking to me. During this, I’ve had some changes, a different outlook on things. During the last days I was told that she came clean to her “Daddy” about us. I held reservations about that, as I was told so many half truths during this whole time. I still consider those lies. So the day comes as I’m standing there with a friend, we were going to get coffee, as we’re standing there I’m dead set on telling this guy the whole truth as he goes to meet with some people. We get up I order my stuff, my old work friend orders hers, I pay, then I think fuck you,& fuck this, I tell her let’s go. I see the look in her eyes that I’ve seen so many times since first working with her out of country years ago. I get in the car light up a joint & look right at her and say why do I care, I’m not the one that has to live a lie, so have it. She looks right in my eyes, kisses me, & says welcome the fuck back. One thing I was taught years ago is nothing good comes from anger, you never make decisions out of anger, you keep your focus & will intact. One last thing I did for her was something nice for Mother’s Day she finally got her llama.  This is where my journey here comes to a pause, or possibly an end. For the time being, take care of yourselves.  Now if you’ll excuse me, I have some donuts to eat & packing to do.