When I was a just a girl, maybe 10 or so, my neighborhood was complied of mainly boys my age. Occasionally a girl would come and go, but i stayed with all those boys most of my childhood. I played all their games, kept up with the best of them. I was one of them. We would play tag Sometimes, as kids do, and those times I found myself trying to get them to capture me and tie me up.... i was met with odd looks and many a raised eyebrow before i finally realized it wasn't exactly "normal". I was so young I really didn't know what exactly my goal was in trying to play this game... only that I desired it. I laugh when I think about what if one of those boys actually did it. Maybe it wouldn't take ne 30 years to ask to be tied up again. Now, as an adult, I realize that my desire to be dominated, tied up and restrained was manifesting itself even before puberty.
I became sexually active at 17 and throughout my entire sexual life I never achieved orgasm with a partner. Only with a vibrator... alone with my fantasies. I never spoke of my desires to any of my partners. Not even the man I married knew I what I desired... what I know now that I needed. We did get a sex swing (his idea) and I didn't use that opening to bring in ideas of my own.... i feared more strange looks and raised eyebrows. So it was a vanilla life for me
Until one day there came a knock at my door....