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A moment and then another

I only exist in the space of the other. My strength, my joy, my love - We are the moments we share.

I have no title, no absolutes, no fixed adornment. I am not submissive in the sense that it is in me and absent in another. I am what I am at the time that I am. I am submissive to all and to no one. I submit to the world in complete faith of its wisdom, acceptance, love and deliverance.

I cannot be defined in absolutes but can be labelled with qualifiers just for common understanding and no more - ever disrupting, ever changing, ever subsiding, ever becoming.

I grow into another and another. Or is it that I strip down to become less and less.
1 day ago. May 21, 2022, 11:20 AM

Before my mind was penetrated, I hoped but didn't believe. I didn't believe there was love for me so engorged and deep.

But my mind has been fucked well and good. A seed of love deep in the depths of my soul, put there by One who inspires the best in me. And makes me want the best for myself.

I am taught devotion to what is true and good. The Best. So I am worthy to kneel and be penetrated deep by those worthy of me.

But I do not stop. Learning. Feeling. Doing. Opening. This is the song of Life. And I believe in Life after it fucked me Big in my mind.


2 days ago. May 20, 2022, 6:04 AM

3 days ago. May 20, 2022, 3:47 AM

"Sometimes I get up early and even my soul is wet." 

- Pablo Neruda


South America holds a special place in my heart. These are some songs of my heart.


Victor Jara 💛


Violeta Parra 💜


Los Jaivas ❤️


Soda Stereo 💙


Manu Chao 💚


4 days ago. May 18, 2022, 3:13 PM

She was caught.

Positioned on her knees and arms restrained above her head, without sight she waited in fear. Her other senses alive, she could smell salt water and hear the low tones and movements of men. They were strong, reserved men - professionals.

Adrenaline running wild inside her and heavy breaths made her breasts heave. They looked magnificent in her silk slip, wet with damp surroundings. Wet trickled down her leg. She was confused by her arousal and tried to conceal her body's lust. But even she could smell the mix of fear and desire.

Footsteps of boots came toward her and stopped inches in front of her.

He could feel her breath.

She wasn't going anywhere.

Silence. She felt his gaze burn into her. Unable to breathe, her cunt beat as her heart.

Facing straight ahead into the pitch black, she could smell him and parted her lips instinctively. Her cunt wet, she hears his smirk as he plunges his hard cock into her wet mouth - down her throat. He holds it there as she chokes and shudders. Fingers plunge into her dripping cunt and pull out before she can cum. He pulls his cock out and she groans with neediness. Her breaths are heavy with desperation. 

She listens intently as he zips his jeans. He twists her nipple and smiles amused then walks away, leaving her dripping and moaning.

She loves to feel such desperate desire.



5 days ago. May 17, 2022, 3:14 PM


It's such a beautiful word. It rolls off the tongue. It also looks extremely sexy on the mouth...

What was I saying? So much tongue...

Vanilla. It's sexy. Well, it's as sexy as you want it to be.

It's not a dirty word. It could be though ;). It could be as dirty as you want it to be (within social acceptability limits of course). 

Vanilla is what you make it - the potential for toppings, extras and compilations is endless. Saying Vanilla in a confident, sexy voice is one thing I would not get tired of seeing.

So why not do Vanilla with such sensual seductive style.


5 days ago. May 17, 2022, 2:57 PM

Hey there lovely humans.

I watched one of my all time favourite movies today with new eyes and new thoughts.

'The Big Lebowski' by Joel and Ethan Coen 

I have always loved The Dude (Jeff Bridges) and his easy come, easy go attitude. Today I watched and saw the allusions to larger concepts within the characters and plot. With this I developed greater admiration and adoration for The Dude. He cruises through life with the aim of living in peace with Life. He doesn't need anything (he just wants his rug back), enjoys the very simple things of life and accepts circumstances and the ways of the world with grace.

"The Dude abides", and in a world of push, shove, righteous indignation and commodification, The Dude's nonchalant attitude makes for a worthy hero. Not a hero, just a nobody. A nobody who lives his life in peace, as the antithesis of his angry and 'wronged' friend (John Goodman), who is the one that sets the whole restitution crusade in motion.

But The Dude abides and he's a loyal friend. And as the Narrator states, it made for a good story that warms the heart.

This may seem like a meandering, pointless blog post but I suppose the crux of it is how the film portrays the beauty and comedy of the nonsensical series of events. The purpose is just that, a good story with good characters that do funny human things. I love an utterly human story and the poetic and ironic moments that make up a good story.

6 days ago. May 16, 2022, 11:58 AM

You know how He is so unpredictable and wickedly funny. 

Bjork said He is "Venus as a boy".

Today He made me laugh and cry... again.

Here I was expecting another obstacle to overcome - a challenge, something difficult and probably degrading. But He broke me with kindness.

I had to accept that I am worthy. And that, my friends, was/is a great challenge.

It's funny that I, like many, struggle to feel worthy. But deep down I know I am.

A thousand times Thank You xx

And Bjork, I love you.

1 week ago. May 15, 2022, 10:28 AM

My life is a moment and then another

Each one a piece of dust, a flake, a raindrop

Sprinkled across the dusty sky

All I can hope for, ask for, is this

Lots of glittery moments


A garden of sunshine built with blood, sweat, tears, shit and rain

Where beautiful white flowers sprinkle gold dust on blankets of moss

I shine wet with tears and sunshine


All I want is to walk with the clouds, smile and watch the gold dust droplets form puddles at our feet.


1 week ago. May 14, 2022, 8:45 AM

To float in ocean waves of Peacock Black

and Gold Glitter Dust rain 🌌


1 week ago. May 14, 2022, 2:07 AM

Today I saw myself as beautiful, internally. Unlike before. I saw the best of myself - my trust, the hope I hold dear and the love I have for everything.

I am a devoted, loyal and loving person.





A good woman 🥲