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A moment and then another

I only exist in the space of the other. My strength, my joy, my love - We are the moments we share.

I have no title, no absolutes, no fixed adornment. I am not submissive in the sense that it is in me and absent in another. I am what I am at the time that I am. I am submissive to all and to no one. I submit to the world in complete faith of its wisdom, acceptance, love and deliverance.

I cannot be defined in absolutes but can be labelled with qualifiers just for common understanding and no more - ever disrupting, ever changing, ever subsiding, ever becoming.

I grow into another and another. Or is it that I strip down to become less and less.
1 year ago. March 5, 2023 at 10:20 PM

How do I surrender with each new day?


With the things I love

Rituals that ease me into the day

With a smile

Some effort

And a little reframing

Appreciating what I see, what is present


What makes me smile?

A smile from the heart

A hug just because: I love you, I need you, I want you

A thank you for being you 

Showing up


Completing tasks and challenges

New and exciting experiences 

Being naughty/cheeky

Seeing myself so beautifully broken


Seeing others bloom

When I feel truth

When I surrender

When I'm clear






1 year ago. March 3, 2023 at 12:48 AM

My stumbling experience, a collection

Of dark night, bright lights, broken dreams and sweet desire

Layed out bare to scavenge, ponder, release and grieve


Trying ever so hard to be light, 

Until I sink and drown in my own weighted mind

To fall restlessly into darkness,

Only to find what I'm so fearful of, my greatest power and beauty -


To my Dark Heart, ever deeper surrender.





1 year ago. March 1, 2023 at 10:19 PM

Is this KO yet? I thought I had died but there's always more dying to do, right!?

Oh God!

The headache eases

The grip on my chest not so tight

Breathe easy now.

A little frivolity (Fuck it!) is the lightness I need now.

1 year ago. February 21, 2023 at 9:13 PM

It's a deep contentment

Where I'm exhausted and can feel it entirely in body and mind

Spent with utter satisfaction

Knowing I put my all in

For a peace of heavenly silence

Reeping what I sow - so sweet

1 year ago. February 20, 2023 at 7:43 PM

The mountains

We climb

Every morning


Every morning 

Mountains to climb


Climb the mountain,

Dance with silence


1 year ago. February 17, 2023 at 3:09 AM

I had an X written on my coffee lid this morning. It made me feel special because someone sent me a kiss. Then I realised I'd ordered an extra shot. Still, I choose to believe it's a 💋. 

Sending lots of kisses right back at ya! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

1 year ago. February 4, 2023 at 8:00 PM

"This is no longer my house. It's been claimed by the sea."



1 year ago. February 3, 2023 at 2:52 AM


1 year ago. January 29, 2023 at 11:05 PM

God, let me be easy today.



1 year ago. January 19, 2023 at 8:49 PM

Oh God,

The lies, the layers

Does it ever end?

Probably not

Any other way?


What do I do?

You don't need to do any thing, you can do any thing you want

Fuck, where do I start?

You started long ago and you're always starting, ending and starting

Fuck, it definitely feels that way. Oh well, guess I love the pain