Creative outlet as a Sub

I sit here quietly in my bedroom tonight, relaxing from work and letting my thoughts run wild. I usually hold back, but tonight I will let my fantasies run ramped in my head. 

Wanting to hold you, kneel for you, cherish you, and worship you. Feeling you firmly take me fully and set  my mind free to a place that only you can; allowing you to take full control over me and us falling into the abyss of this lifestyle. 

Reveling in each other's needs, desires, and wants. Allowing you so deep in me. Taking me, owning me, my mind, body, and soul. 

At last, I know It is but a dream. A fantasy that will not come to fruit. I will tuck myself into bed tonight wishing you where there to do it. 

Tomorrow, I will wake and know better again. In the right mind set of knowing better, but for tonight I'll fantasize about how it would be like to be cherished and devoured all at the same time. 

IRL the lifestyle is new to me. I recently had my first interaction with Daddy Dom this past weekend IRL. He asked me what my needs where. Being a newbie, I know but don't know and explained that to him. And how I wanted to take things slow. When I did try to articulate what I thought my needs were, he over talked me and told me to be quiet and just listen. 

Here's my question:

IRL, does the control also take over what I think my needs are? Should I not be thinking and just allow him to know or figure out what my needs are?

I value communication very highly, and stepped back from this Dom, although he was very nice to me and we stayed friends. He also said he has no limits and requires his subs to have none. I said I have Limits! But then he said you will have none with me because I should trust him 💯 to give me what I need and know. Just meeting someone, I would think we need to get to know each other first. Again, very nice guy but curious to how everyone else started in the beginning. 

Just wondering what everyone's thoughts are on this? 

Thanks

Red

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Hi Everyone! 

Today is one year that I gave into myself and joined the cage! 🥳

And what a year it has been! I have grown and learned so much from this site and all of you! 

I am back in MI and absolutely loving life, the beautiful weather! I've missed home so much! But it was a worthy journey to TN and had given me the nice retreat away I needed for myself! TN is definitely beautiful and I love it, but Michigan beauty, nature, and beaches call to me! 

Thank you to everyone here on the cage, who has played a role in my life this past year that has allowed me to blossom into the person I love 💕 

Now, without further due, I need to go... 'Celebrate' my kinky friends with a little release 😈😇😁💦🥰

I had a Hour and Half video conference last night with my two DOs and HR from my company in Tennessee. Twenty minutes after that conference they called me and offered me a position with a very high pay salary + bonus if I can be down there this weekend and transfer for a new position. 

Im super excited and ready for this new start in my career! 

The first things I packed up last night, my collection of my toys 🥰👿👿😇 of course a girl can't leave behind her best attributes for stress relief 🥰😁

Hmmmm and the naughty ideas I have running through my mind for when I stop at a hotel for the night with my favorite toys :P  *clenching thighs together* 🥰👿😇💕

Tennessee, Here I Cum!!! :P

Have a Great Weekend everyone! 

I want to thank each and everyone of you who welcomed me into the Cage community last year and what a year it has been for me. The ups and downs, the lessons I've learned, the growth I've had this past year has made me stronger, wiser, and more knowledgeable in the Bdsm world!  The friends that I have made and have been there through my trials, gains, and loss. 

Thank you everyone! And hope you all have a bright and beautiful 2022! 

I'll leave you all with this song that touched me after losing my Father recently, I've had a rough time grieving but I know that he would want me to be happy and live my life with a bright smile! So, to my Amazing Father and best Dad a girl could ask for: 

Tonight, I Danced for me! 

I put on one of my favorite dresses, dancing around the kitchen and then in my bedroom. Enjoying and rejoicing in myself! Being happy in my space, as I slowly sway my hips to some slow music. Tonight feels great, just being me! All alone, being able to let loose, with my hair flowing down, my skirt of my dress swinging back and forth. My dress pulled elegantly across my chest and waistline. 

Tonight, I enjoy Me! I sung along to some happy, slow, feel good music, just enjoying the night and freedom to be me! I smiled and enjoyed it! Watched myself in the mirror and loved Me! I may be by myself, but loving yourself is important to move in the right direction! Tonight, I allowed myself to feel beautiful, sexy, and just have fun! 

Remember, when your feeling lost, that its just time leading you in the right direction until you reach within yourself and know, you are beautiful! You are sexy! You are smart! You are worthy! And you are definitely allowed to let loose and Love Yourself! 

I hope that each and everyone of you find that happiness inside to love yourself! For Tonight, I Danced for Me :)

Last night I went to my first Kink Masquerade Ball with a friend (girl) of mine.

Everyone was super nice, having fun and laughing. It was hard to mingle though, there was no clear way to know who everyone was and what their interest was, or taken. I met a couple nice people, had friendly conversations. 

It would be nice if everyone would've had a badge of some sort with their intentions though, as most people kept to themselves and/or to their party they came with.  Although, I converse with everyone no matter their status depending on their personality, mannerism, and friendliness just like anywhere in the world. 

Overall, it was a good experience and fun to get out of the house and just have fun and relax in a non judge mental scene. :)

As I sit outside, enjoying the beautiful evening and watching the sunset, I wonder. I wonder about my life, about how I wouldn't change it. I wonder about what my purpose is anymore. Is there really even a purpose? 

I live day by day, happy most days, sad others. I wonder what life has in store for me anymore. It's like a never ending cycle of loneliness. I went from my kids being little to now grown. Yes they still need me, but it's so different. One flies away, the other two saying they will be soon. And I wonder again, does life really have a purpose? Is living day after day in the same monotone routine all that's left? 

I ponder on these thoughts most days. Yes, most days I'm very happy. But today, as I sit here with the slight cool breeze blowing through my hair, my thoughts ramping through my mind, I'm sad. But tomorrow I will wake up with a smile on my face and get back to it. 

This year has been a rough year for me with different life choices I've had to make. So many changes in my life, I'm barely keeping up. 

I know that this will all be for the better and I will grow with all the changes. 

My friend said that I am going through one of the main phases in life. When I see new possibilities and opportunities, and start to do things that make me happy. I have started to slow down, to smell the flowers and enjoy life. Appreciate the things around me, instead of the workaholic I had resigned myself into. 

I am happier, but still a little sad from all the changes. I know that the choices I've had to make were not easy, but I will be better for them. 

Fantasy 101: Skirting around Trouble

He firmly but gently grabs my upper arm leading me to our bedroom. He’s upset about something although he has kept a cool calmness of control. His tick in his jaw has told me otherwise though, since we got in the car to come home. He swings open the bedroom door, walking faster toward the end of our four-post wrought iron bed, pulling me along with him while my little legs try to keep up. His grip tightening slightly as he places me gently in the center of the foot of the bed, making me face him.

“Naked, Now!” he growls at me, giving me slight glimpse of his primal animal through his bright, brown eyes.

“Yes Daddy,” I reply softly as I slip my skirt and panties down to pool at my feet, then gently take my shirt over my head and throw it gently next to my clothes.

“Hands up, Now!” he commands in low, graspy voice. “Yes Daddy,” I softly exclaim while raising my arms up. He grabs the leather cuffs that are hooked to the chains above, wrapping my wrists up in them one by one, making sure I have no escape.

I think back on the whole evening, trying to decipher if I had broken any of Daddy’s rules or not.  The evening was wonderful, fun, and we had a great time at the party with all the guests. Laughing, a few drinks of champagne, light dinner, and mingling.

I look up into his deep brown eyes as they examine mine, he’s primal needs intensifying in his pupils. He turns from me and goes to his closet of toys as I sway a little and the chains clatter.

Daddy walks back over to me and looks me up and down, sitting a small step stool in front of me. “Step up and balance on the end of the stool.”

“Yes Daddy,” I reply with a shaky nervous but excited voice. My tiny hands grip onto the chains to help balance myself, as I gently step up on the stool with half my feet on and half off. Balancing myself while the chains tighten to full length.

“Good Girl, don’t move,” Daddy commands as I try to stay steady, my body arched between the chains above and my tiny feet trying to stay steady on the edge of the stool. He walks back over to the closet and pulls out a dildo on a thick , long stick.

With long strides he walks back over to me, straddling the stool with one foot on each side, placing the stick upwards under my pussy. I start to breath heavy with anticipation, my pussy starting to throb with what is to come next. He lubes the dildo under me and sets up against the mattress.  Then starts to brush his fingers through my folds, “Don’t move,” Daddy commands looking up into my bright blue eyes as he thrust two fingers inside my wetness. I let out a slow moan, as I struggle to stay steady. Daddy reaches around the small of my back, pulling me towards him and he starts to fuck me roughly with his fingers, my wrist pulling slightly more in the cuffs against the chain’s full length.

I squirm, my body angled and my feet barely gripping the stool when he finally pulls out his fingers. I grasp a low moan, as Daddy keeps his other hand behind my small back and shoves his fingers into my mouth, fucking my mouth, my delicious essence turning me on more. He starts to hit the back of my throat making me gag, drool pooling thru my lips as I suck his fingers with every thrust. I moan loudly as the drool slides out the bottom of my lips falling to my heaving chest.

Removing his fingers from my mouth, he gently swipes my hair back from my forehead.

“Good Girl, now I’m going to help you gently ease your way on to the dildo, you remember your safe word?”

“Yes Daddy,” I moan to him, the excitement building up in me. My pussy aching to be filled.

“Slowly step down while I hold you in place little one,” he says gently to me, he’s grasps tighten onto my lower back, he’s other hand balancing the Dildo on the Stick underneath me once more. He helps to guide me slowly onto the Dildo, I moan as I bring one foot down on my tip toes, then slowly take more of the dildo inside me as I bring the other foot down slowly. I start to pant as the dildo fills me to the brim, with slight pressure. My pussy and clit throbbing as I grab the chains above me once more to help balance myself on my toes.

“How does it feel?” Daddy asks me.

“So full Daddy, so full,” I moan.

“Feet flat little one,” he commands as he removes his hand from the small of my back. Leaving me balancing, as I start to pant and moan more from the pressure of my feet slightly going down then back up on my tip toes. I slowly start to bring my feet back down again, the dildo filling me a little more, centimeter by centimeter. I begin to whimper harder as my feet finally become flattened fully, my arms extended above me with just the cuffs holding me in place now.

My whimpering becomes more rushed with heavy breathes and moans, as the dildo stays in place, creating pressure that make my pussy wet and ache even more and more.

“You will stand there for 20 minutes. You will Not go on your tip toes as I use the wand on you little one, and you are NOT allowed to Cum, do you understand?” he asks me in his commanding voice.

“Yes Daddy,” I whine through more panting.

He brings over the wand and places it on my clit with a slow vibrating sensation. I gasp as he turns it up a notch, moaning and whimpering. Then another notch, teasing my clit, my pussy aching from being so full from dildo and the pressure.

“Please Daddy, I need to cum!” I groan through my moans. He quickly removes the wand from my clit.

“No, you will Not cum!” he orders me as I let out a whimper of frustration. “Yes, Daddy!” I whine.

“Good Girl,” he replies as he turns the wand up full notch and places it hard against my clit. I start to fight the sensation to go up onto my tip toes, my body starting to squirm as I fill the rush of my climax starting to build and build. “Please Daddy Please, I beg you, please let your pussy cum for you!” I barely get the words out through my heavy, panting moans.

I hear his phone alarm go off and he quickly removes the wand from my aching clit. I release a frustrated moan as I struggle to hold myself up on the Dildo on a stick, the chains clinking above me.

“No, you are Not allowed to cum!” he commands once more as he slips the dildo out of my aching pussy, I shiver from the emptiness and my need to cum so bad. Then he releases my wrists, gently rubbing them as he leans into my ear, his breath making my shivers want him more and more.

“You will Not cum tonight!” he whispers to me, “Next time you decide to wear a skirt that short out in public without My Permission, we will go for a whole hour! Now go shower little one, do Not touch what is Mine!”  he whispers through his growl into my ear.

“Yes Daddy,” I whimper from frustration as I turn towards the bathroom, gliding slowly from the ache that courses through my body.