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The loud thoughts of a quiet kitten

Just filtering through the thoughts in my head, deciding what to say and whats better left unsaid..
5 years ago. August 17, 2019 at 10:01 AM

I skip through a field of green running my hands along the grass as I go. My hair dances around me trying to keep up with me as I soar around.

The ground crunches beneath my boots leaving behind a path that leads to nowhere.

I don’t know if I’ll find my way back or even if I want to.

Then I see it blurry colours of yellow. I halt and steady my gaze to make sure what I’m seeing is right. I smile brightly and spin around my skirt flaring out around me. I pause and look again and clasp my hands together and whisper to myself in delight “sunflowers!”

Now I run the breeze howling in my ears until I finally reach the sunflowers rows and rows of yellow I can barely reach them as they are so tall and beautiful. I giggle and dart in and out between the flowers. Out here I am free unaware of the world around me.

All of sudden I fly backwards landing on my bottom with a startled cry. My hand goes to my face where my nose stings and my green eyes fill with tears.

Confused and dazed I look around me searching for an answer.

Then my heart stops. I forget to breathe. A strange man stands before me. I’m not as alone as I thought.

He is looking down at me with dark eyes bewildered by my mere existence.

I stand up in a start and before I can even comprehend what I’m doing I sprint away. The direction is no matter as long as I’m running away.

I can’t here if he is chasing me as the sound of the breaking grass and wind is deafening.

Is it just me or is it getting darker I thought the sun was out I think it’s getting colder now. I don’t know if I am afraid or liberated. I suddenly realise the fields of yellow are no where to be seen. A massive tree awaits me in a meadow where there is not a place to hide. I’m out of breath and my legs feel like they will crumble beneath me. I make it to the tree just in time to slide to the ground before I collapsed.

I must have blacked out for a moment or two because when I opened my eyes there he was kneeling before me.

I gasped in surprise. He pulled his hand from behind his back and I covered my face suddenly afraid.

He cleared his throat and I peeked through my fingers. Confused I moved my hands away to find the biggest sunflower I’d ever seen in my life.

“For you little one” was all he said in a deep soothing voice. I hesitantly reached out and accepted the flower and couldn’t help the smile on my face as I held it in my hands.

And when I looked at him again his eyes where darker then before “ you shouldn’t be out here alone little one there are wolves out here who eat little bunnies like you”

I shivered at his words because we both know there are no wolves out here but something told me there was all but one wolf here and I think I landed in his trap.

7 years ago. November 19, 2017 at 9:54 PM

I am frightened.
Can you override the fear
Redirect my pain
Make me beautiful.

I am lost
Can you set me on a path
Show me who i am
Make me beautiful

I am silent
Can you hear the unspoken words
Understand me
Make me beautiful

I am wiltered
Can you help me to grow
So that i may blossom
Make me beautiful

I am Hesitant
Can you give me reassurance
Prove thy worthy
Make me beautiful

I am ready
Can you see my scars
You put me back together
Make me beautiful

I am willing
Can you feel the claim you have on me
You made me complete
Make me beautiful

I am yours
I can feel my place at your feet
This is my home
I am beautiful