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Memoir of a Submissive

My personal journey, our story.
7 years ago. December 13, 2017 at 10:40 AM

 

There, written in a book, kept by an older mother who feared she would be childless, were the words of my first prayer: “Bless Mommy and Daddy, Grandma and Grandpa, and everyone I know. Help me to be a good girl.”

 

Just what a “Good Girl” was became my lifelong journey. Did it mean always doing as i was told? Was it to achieve academic success? Ascribe to every religious tenant and live out every lesson in piety?

 

If so, i had that “Good Girl” prayer answered. In spades.

 

And i was miserable.

 

Oh, i continued to do every act expected of me, speak every word as i should, but inside, deep within the most hidden caverns of me, was a darkness that i feared. It was the spectre of a thousand wishes and hopes denied in pursuit of the almighty “Good Girl.”

 

These shadowy desires swam in a sea of passionate pain, ties and ropes, lashings, and submission.  How could i ever let them bask in sunlight’s embrace and still remain me, a Good Girl?

 

He was always able to see both sides of me, and it was Master who wielded each blow, knotted each bind, delivered each lash, and dominated that which i kept trying to hide.

 

And when i thought i could take no more, He spoke the words my heart had sought for a lifetime:

 

Good Girl.

 

Rule 28:  my greatest felt satisfaction is realized when i know i have pleased my Master.

Bunnie - “my greatest felt satisfaction is realized when i know i have pleased my Master.” love this ?
7 years ago
Felicia Foster​(sub female)​{Kal} - It’s the life blood of a submissive ???
7 years ago
Kal Foster​(dom male)​{felicia} - I adore you. And I am glad we have arrived at a new definition of "good girl" that gives you peace.
7 years ago
Felicia Foster​(sub female)​{Kal} - You are my peace ??
7 years ago

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