Nut up or shut up

We need to take proper notice into what our desires are telling us and why we have the kinks we do for example. 

I love the idea of a woman with a strap on pegging me I think it's beautiful hot deeply creative. But for the longest time I never really understood why I like being pegged or dominated into submission by a right woman who proves my whatever wrong it to understand how she feels to me and what she could possibly see in me or the idea of changing places with her in a fanticy but mistaken for other reasons lead me to other things I had no interest or really didn't like and some sparked a great desire to want and curious enough to maybe one day try and explore . We all have feelings less hurt them heal them nurish them love them and teas them reach out and grab someone loanly to show life's worth living because alot don't think so and need it.

I can not get over the feelings I have for the rejection of public society and even family I'm just in a fuck it life can get worse but why do I have to die slow if I'm so dam important to stay alive then at least can I enjoy myself I dont hurt anyone or myself but require people attention mental physical emotional acceptance but nope is what it is nothing is going to change but my age bitterness and expectations of people and their humanity I got a phone call today and I  seriously thought it was a real human  no joke seriously laughed told me it wasn't a recording and I gave it one little verification fact to adhere to and if I hadn't caught it well I'm sure the diffrence of how I feel could not get much worse than it already do. 

Mr and Ms smith I think it's the hottest Dom vs Dom fight  to submition make up sex scene I know off

my sexuality is has and, always will be very creatively deep and forever a thirsty with want for more than anyone could every give me to the best of my knowledge no one has ever come close enough to even begin to make me feel welcome or wanted enough until I meet my honey bee she was a dark haired blue eyed freak with the thirst equal to my own without the care for my desire to satisfy her and overwhelm her like I have every other woman I had laid with first night we went 2 quick rounds and one marathon 1st round I got about three strokes blew a solid load big enough to fill the condom so full it's dripping out the base 2knd round about ten minutes enough to get a little sweet on and her legs are twitching and lips are trembling and I comment I'm sorry didn't mean to get off so quick usaly 2knd time I can't get off of I go really fast didn't want to hurt you she smiles and asks if I can go again I reply yes if I go fast so she asks me to get it up so I say we'll lay back feed a man see what happens she dose I get about 5 minutes of munch time and she is legs twitching again lips all shaky so I ask again now now now don't stop so we go a 3rd time and in the mist of me rolling my strokes I hear a call clap clap clap and I go WTF is your roommate in here and she said no doors shut cause he's gay and at the moment I'm a label wearing don't touch my ass unless your a woman and she brought to my attention  that it was probably my ass checks so I repeat the side to side up and down motion thrust and my shit goes limp face turns red and yep I made my ass clap stroken lol so I figure this chick all good well come to find out I had not made a dent in her hunger drained myself but she falls asleep with a vibrator on it nightly wears them out in under a week I made one baby with this chick got married divorced 2 swings 1 3sum and to be honest only enjoyed the time spent only with her the socail was times we did those things were nightmares that ended with me just watching them have fun and me feeling my libido dieing since we have been divorced  it has finally come back but I know what not to say and to say miss her even though she was self-esteem sexually destructive to me and very educational at the same time I know to ask to make up for my mistakes after apology be honest and only as faithful as my partner is and not to ask what y'all want to eat! Lol