My Stumble into the BDSM

And I want it all! So with that being said I want to read some great BDSM books not that "Fairytale" 50 Shades crap.

Ok so I took a brief break to really figure out what I wanted and Damnit I figured out a lot! (Let's just say it includes a family trip to Palm Springs and a random call from an ex) a post all by itself but anyway. I couldn't find my password,I thought the profile was deleted. I was all over the place. But needless to say I'm Baaaaaaack!

So this show "Real Sex",I stumbled on it again and this time is was the same episodes but I caught it from the beginning. Leather whips,chains,clamps,floggers,handcuffs,gags,table's,chairs oh and lets not forget the contraptions that resemble medieval torture devices. So there was this lady she was dressed in a latex catsuit her name I believe was "Mistress Catherine"(it wasn't really I don't remember what it was but she looked like a Catherine so for the sake of my story we will call her Catherine) the presence on the TV alone was captivating but the way she demanded to be worshipped and how as her footsteps approach from the other room her sub instantly showered her with adoration,wait let's talk about the way he bowed at her feet WAIT men do this! I was hooked and that was when my covert mission to find out as much as I can about this BDSM stuff without my family finding out!

So I've always been a bit odd, (to say the least) no not just the odd ball of the family,I mean everyone thought I was a weirdo. I grew up in the inner city so I guess I was considered a nerd but I hung with the "cool" kids so I stood out even more with them. I mean I never thought of my quirks as a negative, hell I didn't think I was doing anything out of the ordinary(for me) anyways that's not what you are here for LOL. I became intrigued by the lifestyle in my senior year of high school I was channel surfing and ran across a random cable program called Real Sex and this particular episode was all about BDSM and I was overcome with this feeling that  to this day I have yet recreate......