Thoughts of a Gemini

I...am simply a human........I am not perfect...I make mistakes, I live, I laugh, I hurt, I love....we cannot change what we are....we are human....no matter how hard we try a God is something we will never be.
    We cannot run or escape from this one simple fact...we are human.....not a god and though a God can accomplish unthinkable things...We are only human, to be human comes with amazing gifts as well, to feel... love....to hurt... being a human is the most vulnerable thing one can be....but it can also be the strongest...not for our physical strength. Yes, we can increase our physical power....but we are not gods...we simply cannot and will not lift buildings distort reality, and control the very fabric of existence... We are only human...this is not what gives us our strength like the gods.
     It is our minds, our hearts....even more so our souls...these allow us to feel emotions, to feel and see beauty others couldn't even imagine. This is the gift of humanity, even a God can't truly understand...for if they do not wish it, then it is gone or changed...But we are only human.          We cannot change others by simply willing it, we cannot change physical reality to fit our whims....We must face everything head on feeling, processing, living. And though to be human is hard....it is also a beautiful thing, hard to grasp and understand...unless you are human.
      But to human is to feel emotions, feel the beauty you see with your eyes. A God does not feel these things, why should they? Gods should have no reason for these feelings. They cannot process and feel as a human can......it is a gift....a gift once squandered away....can leave you lost in the darkness struggling to see, to breathe, to feel...slowly suffocating In the endless void searching for a way back to the other side.....

What do you do when your supposed to be someone's world. Their light in the dark, their dark in the light. How do you fix the world after its ended? Does one truly believe the tales they see on the tv....if the world ends....can one....simply....put it back the way it was? With hard work does this kind of life actually exist?
Can you take a plate shatter it and put it back together? Of course not.....but you can make a better stronger plate perhaps use something other than glass....but...that's just it....everything is so fragile and the slightest bump could shatter everything.
     When you are lost in the forest how do you find your way out? Can one simply learn to survive.....or does one need help....even if it's just knowledge that knowledge can help you find your way back.....
      But when the world is shattered, the forest you were lost in is now ablaze and your suffocating, the smoke filling your lungs with every breath....you look around and realize....this is it....this the end....as the my world shatters and my forest burns....I stand here knowing I can't get out...there is no hope....as the smoke fills my lungs I cough...familer as I used to smoke....as the world fades out the coughing lessens,
     The heat that was once unbearable is comforting...the sounds that once sent fear and panic...I find soothing....this is the end....this is how I go...lost in a shattered burning world...and finally I am at peace rejoing my lost family and pets all that have come before me...I hope...when I see them....I have not become a disappointment to them.